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Monday, November 29, 2004
it's been hell for me man...earth seems so far away from here...been quarreling and tearing these days...tot that after the bangkok trip we'd be much better...or even at least improve a lil...nv would i tot that we'd be in such a bad shape...
he's all worried abt his company and all...and i'm here feeling all alone...i dunno how to get the load of him...hence became damn pms nowadays...he said that he's under loads of pressure and stress and all...and i'm here...unable to understand it all...am i juz a failure or wad...is my incompetence causing everyone to be unhappy...even belle is sucked into my hurricane of sadness...we've been flaring up at each other so often i can hardly rem the times when we were actually happy together...onli by looking at the past photos can i rake up the happier times...everything sux so damn much...i hate this hols...hate it totally...wish i didnt screw everything up...i'm so tired of crying...thinking that crying will solve everything...thinking that crying will make me feel better...i was wrong...so so wrong...i onli feel worse...i feel like dying...
*thx belle...thx for helping...i'm trying to continue from where u left me...i'll press on...till i can kiss the happy grounds again...
+ the devil speaks + 6:31 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
As emptiness falls into place,
My tears too run down my face
Ever since time was stolen away,
I miss him more and more each day
"I promise to change!" I said,
But today i hesitate
Shouldn't you be the one changing?
Before my heart loses the longing...
kinda sad poem hor!!!haha...but liked it...anyway was dying of boredom at work...comments ppl!!!so that i noe how great my poems are...haha!!!so bhb!!!no offence to him lah...but needed a topic to touch on...
+ the devil speaks + 4:30 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
he's FINALLY back...hahaha...after a long weekend of waiting...realli glad...at least he came back in one piece...that means no bomb no nth...tt'S GOOD!!!but he's sick...got a HUGE ulcer in his throat *ouch*...poor thing..."spoke" on the fone today...well...in a way we are...i was toking on the fone...he was typing away on msn...weird huh???but was fun...at least he's back...
poor yw...she was kinda weak today when i went to see her with h and gra...damn poor thing oso...hh said the bandage was damn damn long...so the cut muz be damn damn long as well...she was like slping half the time we were there...poor ger...somemore she cannot move much...omg...machiam bedridden...but luckily onli for a couple of days...get well soon gurl...yw hardly ate anything today...onli half a tiny piece of fish, half a bun and half a cup of milo...she even threw them all out after a while...damn sad...dun feel gd myself...tried to crack her up but she said laughing hurts...haiz...i dunno wad to do oso...the least i can do was to bring her laughters *tt's wad i do best*...anyway...realli hope to see her up and abt soon...
*i'm realli glad you're back...and i'm sorry for the past...
+ the devil speaks + 11:33 PM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
realli damn fun today...cos yw has an op tml...so today accompany her round town...a day out before her op...damn poor thing...such tender age muz undergo op liao...sad...YAN WEN JIA YOU!!!dun be afraid my fren...i'll be there for you!!!
anyway...hh last min cannot join us cos she gotta look after her doggie...so we had to leave without her...spent majority of our time in cineleisure k-box...sang lotsa songs!!!first time we tackled FIR's songs...actually quite nice...i think i'm gonna love that band...hahah!~fav song of today was "wo yao fei" ...kept singing that...even made a few vids of ourselves...too bad i got nowhere to post them online...those are classics man!!!whoever wanna watch juz ask for it in msn ok???
after k-box went to pasta mania for dinner...had spinach tortellini for myself and carbonara for yw...great dinner there!!!den headed down tangs for festive photos...damn nice the decors on the streets...also happened to be the last day of the buskers' festival...so managed to catch the "tail" of the festival...caught a juggling act...the juggler was damn damn damn damn good...he's great at entertaining...great jokes...caught a BEAUTIFUL piece of art...it was drawn on the floor using onli CHALKS!!!believe it or not man...the guy's damn good at it...check out the pics...it'll awe you man...TOTALLY!!!saw some face art as well...that was great as well...the lady's got true talent...
took a few great pics down town...but still smth's amiss...HH AND GRA OF COS!!!
*still waiting for your return...miss you so much...
+ the devil speaks + 11:38 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
he left today...for bangkok...abt 11 i think...managed to get him call me when he woke up and sms-ed him juz before he boards the plane...suddenly like damn scared...cos of all the chaos in thailand now...one bomb will mean the end man...omg...pls let him be ok???
went out with him last night...met him at abt 8+...took a cabbie down to town juz to withdraw $$$ which is damn bloody lame lah!!!den in the end still took another cab down to harbourfront to talk...we are crazy lah...but the outing wasn't all sweet and nice...i kinda broke down in the cab...cried on him...cos he say i didnt act like i wanted to be out with him at all...den he was angry with me...den i totally lost it...but after a while we're both cool...
i admit lah...realli was quite sian at first...but i was realli happie inside...juz duno y i dun wanna expess it out...maybe cos i wanna make him feel bad abt neglecting me???*bleh...i'm such a bloody lamer*...i was crazy lah...sorry...
come to think abt it...if he nv returns *CHOI CHOI CHOI!!!TOUCHWOOD*...i'm realli gonna regret for not making an effort in ending the date with a smile...kinda hate myself???i dunno lah...screw it lah...
+ the devil speaks + 2:29 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY changed my bloody template...this new template is abit the crude lah...but believe me i'm not trying to be a bitch...juz liked it...anyway...did the changes all by myself *smug*...damn shiok the feeling...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLE!!!hope u enjoyed ur day with dennis...tell me all abt it ok?!?whahah...so happie for u gurl...oh yah!!!shit...ur pressent!!!omg...dunno wad to get...will discuss with pam they all...meanwhile...keep trying on ur love ok???dun gif uP!!!
damn excited!!!finally gonna meet him tml...juz before he leaves for his hols...gonna miss him i guess...i mean i havent been seeing him v often nowadays...and juz when things are finally changing (maybe) he gotta leave for the weekend...it's a kinda hard even though i'm already "trained" not to see him for a period...but there's like no way to contact him every night???omg...i'm so gonna cry...it's so tough...
+ the devil speaks + 11:56 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
had a great time these 2 days with my gfs...yw came over in the evening after i knock off...spent time at my home using com...mp3...and tv till abt 10+ into the night...did all these time-wasting activities cos we had to wait for gra and hh to finish their lovey dovey time with their bfs...dinner and some time for hugs and all those stuffs...BEFORE they meet us at ps at abt 11+???didnt realli kept track of time yday...watch SAW...the movie is damn damn damn gross and it realli freaked me out man...the way how human minds can actually think of such gruesome ways to kill ppl...yucks!~
after movie...poor hungry gra had a lil gastric prob...so cut short the time out in town and headed for my home for a night...that was abt 3???i dun realli noe...didnt spend much time with them cos i realli wasnt in the mood...they were having fun in my bro's room with me spending solitary time in my room...wasnt their fault actually...i was juz feeling moody...pms maybe???
things are not realli on track nowadays...though spent quite a number of time outside with frens...those memories are only PART of something i realli wanted...i dunno wad i'm hoping for too...maybe time will reveal it all???dun mind me ppl...i dun even noe wad the hell i'm toking already...
anyway...woke up in the afternoon...hh left early for her banquet training at fullerton...gra's dad came back home so she gotta leave...me and yw went ard the whole of town to watch Incredibles but all sold out...so ended up watching Bride&Prejudice...i hafta admit that the aishwarya gurl is realli very pretty...but the lil tummy was abit of a sore...not that i haf a perfect body but...well...at least she looks more proportionate than i do???haha...bye peepx!~
*enjoi your time overseas...though dun get to celebrate out anniversary together...dun worry abt it...
+ the devil speaks + 6:49 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
worked half day today...juz covered all the lunches...was so damn excited abt my cornrows after i heard that belle and pork went to make their hair today...was so envious lor!!!wished i could do it today...or tml...asap...
spend the rest of the after noon with belle and pork in town...pork looks damn nice ok!?she's like a rocker chic now!!!den belle looks so much "guai-er" now with her straight hair...looks quite innocent lah...but still as blur...anyway...they both turned out damn great...much better than before...i wish i could make a change today too...hahah!~BUT...the braids are so damn expensive...over my budget liao...budden i tink i'll still go for it asap...cant stop thinking abt it...hahah!~spent the remaining time while waiting for hh at the Mac cafe outside lido...damn screw up...spilled my ice coffee on myself...stained every damn thing...SO IRRITATING!!!
spent the night with my fmss sec 2 class...although onli less than a fraction of us turned up (onli 10 of us)...we had fun lah...though the guys and the gurls (onli me-hh-yw-gra) kinda splitted up after dinner...the gurls are realli crazy today...we TOTALLY humiliated ourselves in public...we took all kinds of REALLI funny photos with the movie posters in lido...hahaha...juz check out the e-photos...after gra uploads the pics and sends out to me...so you juz gotta gimmi a couple of days lah...the security guards and other patrons were like staring and stuffs...we're crazy lah...den went over to cine's TCC...had some drinks and played some realli goofy stunts...i managed to "thicken" my lips using my tongue...it's a secret technique man...hahaha!~I LOOK REALLI ATROCIOUS!~den played a little game that totally rocked the whole cafe...we were so damn LOUD!!!me+gra VS hh+yw...each pair tried to act out a segment of wadever movie...try to make it damn hard to guess lah...but somehow hh+yw managed to crack every single one we did...den we oso did the "xi nu ai le" thinggy (happy angry upset super-happy)...was realli fun lah...damn damn damn crazy today...hahaha
+ the devil speaks + 1:15 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
today was the MOST MOST MOST touching celebration...celebrated with lotsa peepx from ctss...got him...darius...sebas...junjie...junwei...gad...zhenning...sikai...tham... chengpeng...william and gf huiwen...was damn fun lah!!!had dips in the water...gab and william are "taxis" cos they piggyback onli one person each(nonetheless is me and huiwen lah)...den gad is the "bus" cos everyone else chiong him and hung onto him...was damn funnie!!!cannot even see his face...onli here him scream "HELP!GET OFF!"...hahah!~tt's wad the guys always do to gaddy aka gad dog...BULLY!!!mean is damn mean lah...budden damn fun oso!~somemore gad has no temper at all...tt's y despite him being the tallest...he always ganna tao pok by the rest..
today i had ANOTHER cake again...this time is blueberry cake...the guys purposely bought the kinda candles that you can never blow out unless you realli blow till you blackout...which i did today...sadistic peepx...lolx...but thx anyway!~
this time sikai and tham became the chefs for the bbq...last time used to be sebas and chengpeng...the 2 damn pro swimmers...the food today was not too bad lah...onli the stingrays are abit too dry liao cos cook too long on the fire...next time should let sebas and cp cook...juicier...hahah!~
today got no presents at all lah can say...budden damn touched...cos while i was eating the food tt time...suddenly everyone disappeared one by one...den me...being the ultimate glutton didnt realise that until i looked up from my plate lah...den tried to look for him...den ask tham and sikai oso say dunno...den after a while chengpeng or dunno hu came back say he got trouble...i of cos damn gan chiong lah cos he was sick today...somemore went down water to play...so tot wad the hell happened...so went to look for him outside the toilet...den later he came...blindfold me say wanna bring me go somewhere...den brought me to the coastline there...guess wad?!?there was a DAMN BIG AND BEAUTIFUL "HAPPY B'DAY X'TIE" made out by light sticks...damn touched lor...the whole gang of them went to make that for me...damn damn damn happy...cried abit...cos like no one ever did something like that for me before la!!!realli damn nice...dun believe go check out my e-photos...
den when i went home...i "re-made" the words using the lightsticks i took and pasted on the wall...i'm never gonna take that down...realli damn nice...but "nice things never lasts" (quoted from zhenning)...damn sad...realli wanna make it last forever...he's damn damn sweet today...
*thx so much for all that you've done for me...though u realli didnt wanna go down water...u still did in the end juz to keep me company...thank you so so so much...i'm realli very happy today...
+ the devil speaks + 2:22 AM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
whahahaha...today's considered the 2nd celebration for me...had a damn great time today oso...budden damn spoiler lah...tml gotta work...here's wad happened today:
met pam...pork...eunice...belle...eileen at abt 2:45 to 3...had a great feast at sakae at wheelock...think we totally raped the shop lah...had like over 50+ plates of food and alot of scallop...whahaha...belle still can say "order 10 oso i can finish lor...damn nice"...den she didnt even noe she was eating scallop...say wad "i dun like scallop one lor"...budden still keep eating...had a shopping spree today man...poor eileen cannot join us...got training...budden i think she enjois the training cos got ROBIN HOOD!!!lolx...spent like 70+ on clothes today...almost bought another tube dress that's like $40...DAMN WORTH IT!!!maybe going to buy tml...i'm realli emptying my bank acct man...me and belle realli spent hours inside the dressing room...the ppl outside damn buay song us liao...inside the dressing room i feel so damn "small" lor...cos belle's one so DAMN BIG!!!hey gurl...dun get offended ok???nothing wrong in being big...weird thing is she wish for it to be smaller and flatter...whahaha!~one of a kind man...she's so damn gan chiong over her bday next next week...cos gonna spend it with her fav guy...relax gurl!!!chilled out a lil at coffee club...den all headed home to watch show liao...DAMN DAMN FUN!!!so diff from yday...yday was recalling memories from the past...today is shopping mania!!!
got pressies today oso...pam+eileen+eunice+pork+alicia+mirzzy+belle=TEVA SLIPPERS THAT I ALWAYS WANTED!!!hahaha...they so xi xing...i onli say once that i like tat slippers than they can rem liao...haha!~I LOVE YOU ALL!!!den got 2 bday cards from belle and alicia+eileen...damn touched...den eunice got me a paper cake...damn cute!!!whahaha...if can i try to take a pic and post it on my photo album...got 2 more tops from top from topshop again today...haha...im crazee lah...spend way too much $$$ liao...hehe!~
going to change my looks after new year...will blow all you guys away man...juz you wait!~
+ the devil speaks + 10:07 PM
dammit...the entry i typed for so damn long ganna erased away...PISSED!!!bloody lappy...anyway...shall not let this small misfortune of mine to spoil the whole spirit...erm...here's wad happened today:
spent my morning at work..had a simple lunch with my mom at 12...den left for harbourfront to buy a simwear...pampered myself with this lime green brazilian swimwear...cost me like $88.30...HAHAHA!!i'm crazy...anyway...spent like 2 hrs in the shop choosing here and there...tried on almost everything...almost drove the lady crazy...bought the swimwear partially cos he say wanna celebrate at sentosa...so wanna get myself a new set lor...den later took a cab down cos supposedly meeting him at 2:30 at harbourfront mrt...chiong home liao den he tell me change of plans...now meet 2:30 at heerens...i was like -_-...damn sianx 1/2...cos if i knew earlier i can take straight bus there...no need waste $$$ take cab home...anyway...gotta rush to heerens again from my home...took another cab ride in the rain...reached there almost 3...den waited for like 20 mins for him to appear...but guess did???GRA...HH...TY turned up!!!hahaha...cos he actually arranged for us to celebrate together and have a gurls' night out...he knew that my bday will not be complete without them...my vball gfs...had a feast at marche...yw turned up juz when we were abt to start ordering...took lotsa wacky pics and did crazy stuffs there...we played "zhong ji mi ma"(if u guesssed the number u do a penalty)...den suppose to add salt and pepper into our cokes...took a video of the faces when drinking the horrible liquid...yuck!~den later...he came to deliver my bday cake...coffee one...but he was sick...so didnt stay for long...den after he left...jon(gra's bf) joined us...had a tough time persuading ty to go moies with us...she's kinda like sanwicked in btwn her mom and us...but in the end she still went...watched Shark Tale...damn damn damn nice...damn cute...damn funny...was a great day lah!!!poor yw walked with me from cine to lucky plaza there...tried to flag a cab along the way...with her sprained ankle...it was realli tough on her...budden we couldnt even get a single cabby to even LOOK at us...so ended up taking 143...met gra and jon at the next stop...went home still gotta eat mee sua...today realli put on weight liao...tml still got sakae...OMG!!!I REALLI NEED SLIMMING PILLS!!!
recevied realli a whole lot of pressies today...gra ty hh yw shared to gimmi 2 tops from topshop and a NY cap...gab shared cost with him mom to buy me an 18k white gold anklet and a big doggie pillow...flat flat one...cute!!!mom dad and aunt gave me ang bao each...budden havent open yet..dun intend to open till i realli broke...my girl-next-door gave me another plush toy...hello kitty...this one even cuter...square square one...hahaha...nv see before siah!!!received lotsa smses from alot of peepx...thx man!!!thank you guys so damn much!!!-huggies-
tml still gotta meet pam and gang for sakae trip...whahaha...realli gonna put on weight liao lah...
*thx so much for organising today's meet-up...thx...and get well soon ok???i hate SICK guys...
+ the devil speaks + 1:01 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
today was alright...at least i didnt get any calls for me throughout the day...but still sianx half when i had to relief her for her lunch hour...bloody bitch...cos i was at another site before i went over to take over her...my colleague there let me off to take over the bitch's shift earlier by 10 mins so that i dun haf to rush over...den i reached there on time lah...den the bitch was like doing some admin work on her com...den i asked "you dun wanna go lunch ah?"..."no lah,i wanna finish my work first"...ACT LIKE!!!kaoz...den later she went to slp...nv tell me where to find her somemore...den i dun care lah...i did my work...this time i cleverer liao...got deliveries and all i juz put it on her table with a note...nv bother to slot them into pigeon holes or call the receiver...in case i do smth wrong AGAIN!!!den later i need to leave at 11:50 so that i can go to another site on time to take over another lunch hour...den i tink she went ard telling her frens abt me negatively...den i need to wake her bloody damn head up to resume duty...i dunno where the hell she is mah...so i saw her fren...asked her whether she noe where the bitch is not...i damn polite when i ask lor...smile somemore...den her fren gimmi BLACK FACE...tmd...nv die before...den when i found the slut...told her i need to leave to another site...she ask me "what time now?"..."11:50"...den she "tsk" me lor!!!say wad "next time 12 den can leave ah!"...KAO PEI!!!if i leave at 12 den the other person i'm going to take over gotta cut down her lunch period lah!!!NO BRAIN!!!BEING PREGNANT IS NO BIG FUCK!!!
kaoz man...damn damn damn damn pissed siah...next time im gonna tell my boss say i dun wanna get posted there liao...see her face already SIANX DIAO!!!tmd...
+ the devil speaks + 8:21 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
today realli not my day siah...tmd!~early in the morning ganna a call from my supervisor say got ppl complain abt me...cos i opened their letters from the letterbox...the thing is: THERE'S NO BLOODY NAME WRITTEN ON THE FRONT!!!how the fuck they expect me to noe who's letter it was ah!me got no penetrating eyes leh...bunch of idiots...but guess wad???the irony is the permanent receptionist there was the one who complained abt me...since when i stepped on her tail siah???den she still can complain say me and peiling (my partner last fri) left the drawers and everything on when we knock off...wad shit she toking siah...it's common sense lah!!!we were like damn freaking sure that we switched off and locked up every bloody thing she had at her counter lor!!!den i borrowed one of her magazine home to read over the weekend...i left a damn big note at the counter saying that i'm the one who took the magazine...den today she called me up and ask "you took my magazine issit?that one is my personal drawer you noe???how can you just take like that?"...damn bitch...i wasnt the one hu took it from her fucking drawer lah...peiling was reading before me...and peiling DID explain to her before she called me...it's like she did it on purpose one lah!!!bloody damn bitch...everything oso she complain one...not the staff there lor...but lucky me...i got lotsa peepx supporting me...so if i ganna any shit cos of this issue...they'll stand up for me...
damn irritated today...pissed...den make me damn upset the whole morning laH!!kept thinking whether the staffs there were unhappy abt me...so it was onli the bloody damn bitch at the counter...i tink i noe the reason why she's all out to pick on me and peiling...cos last thur she was damn late for work...peiling said she arrived at 9+ when work starts at 8:30...den peiling was damn new...so she didnt noe wad to do...how to start up the computer system and all...so she called our supervisor to ask...den the supervisor knew that the bitch was late for work...so called up the dog(bitch's husband) to ask...dog said she left home at 8:30...den worse is the bitch is so damn stupid to lie that she was stuck in a jam...so conclusion is that the bitch was exposed...den she tot is peiling purposely call to complain on her...so now she's taking revenge...picking on every minor details we did...i'm not gonna touch any damn letters she has on her counter man...whether got names or not...FUCK YOU BITCH!!!
at least now i feel better...almost wanted to quit the job man...whahahaha...anyway...juz a piece of viable advice to all you peepx reading my blog: remember to check your horoscope before you leave home...it's so damn bloody impt lor!~
+ the devil speaks + 11:37 PM
today was cooL!!!went marina for steamboat with the 3 idiots-pam+belle+pork...dunno wad's the occasion but pork got her pay so her treat...so let's juz take it as a halloween celebration...though we didnt dress up and all...it was fun though...juz kept stuffing ourselves with all the "dirty" food covered in the black black chao ta stuff...whahahaha!~
not forgetting the Battle Between The Species-Human vs Prongs (dunno why kept pronouncing "prawns" as "prongs" today)...was damn fun lah!!!belle was realli damn comedy...kept saying "i not scared liao" den later after lifting the lid of the container she scram till damn far away...all of us were damn freaked out by the prawns man...esp one that refused to die and juz kept jumping ard on the table...none of us dared to even get close to it...so eventually "murdered" it by pouring the bubbling soup on it...think the whole place all looking at us...damn paiseh!~
damn happy that he actually came all the way from jurong to marina to hang out with me...though with all the other peepx ard...we didnt realli tok much or anything...but still glad to see him...afterall it was like damn freaking long nv see him liao...we had lotsa arguments these few days...so it kinda strengthened us when we actually got to meet up...it's gd lah...love it!~
sorry i didnt spend much time with you...esp since you came all the way down...but thx anyway!~
+ the devil speaks + 12:23 AM