[ This Girl ]
WAD MY PARENTS NAMED ME:christie
WAD MY FRENS CALL ME:xtie OR chris
WHEN I FIRST BECAME AN EARTHLING:031187
[ My Loves ]
volleyball.mp3.eat.sleep.shit.msn.presents.hols.friends.WORLD PEACE(bullshit!).my bro in aussie.memories of blake.hazel cruize.back to the basics.mark baby
+ + + + + i'll add more along the way + + + + +
[ My Wishes ]
a complete makeover.new sneakers.heels.my pay.more slp.my bro's & cera's return.weight loss scheme.new tops and bottoms
+ + + + + alot more to come along the way + + + + +
[ My Mood ]
i can be damn pms...i can be damn nice...i can be angel...i can be an ass...some peepx thinks that im funny...some think that im crazy...however you wanna see me as...suit yourselves
my friends...
You Are 19 Years Old |
19
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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[ The Memories ]
+October 2004+
+November 2004+
+December 2004+
+January 2005+
+February 2005+
+March 2005+
+April 2005+
+May 2005+
+June 2005+
+July 2005+
+August 2005+
+September 2005+
+March 2009+
Thursday, March 31, 2005
yeah...this is it...cera realli left for aussie...initially was postponed to next mon but last min say gotta leave immediately yday night...745pm flight...got notified at 11++am...was realli shocked and all...vanessa me cera wanted to go for a dinner yday night...was prepared to forsake my notes for tt dinner...hu noes had to cancel cos she's gonna leave...
was a realli sad day for me...my closest gf left...wun be able to go kbox with her...wear like fashion disasters to town...chomping mint chocolates...stayovers...swimming...bitching...eating...making fools out of ourselves...working together...doing morning shifts together...rotting behind the counter...doing silly stuffs entertaining ourselves...so many memories we had...realli hope time flies...realli cant imagine how my next 1 yr is gonna be like without someone to hang out with...without someone hu shares the same fashion as me...without someone to call me out...damn...life's gonna be so tough...
was realli hard to let go last night at the airport...promised not to cry until at least after she goes in the departure gate...but the moment i saw my dear pal...the moment i hugged her...tears were juz coming down...cried the shit out of myself...realli gonna miss you...i am already...starbucks peepx got her a mrs field's cookie cake but she couldn't bring it over...so she gonna keep it till she comes back singapore...gra hh ty mc yt and the 2c gang came to send her off...realli regretted turning up so late...had so little time to say our goodbyes...but i was glad it was fast...if not i would've juz cling onto cera...dun let her go...haha...
yw: dun come back like a MGS girl ok!!!stay fairfield...so gonna miss you...cant wait to see the new u...the aussie u...muz buy things for me ok!!!surf wear and all...and u cannot slim down ah!!!if not i dun dare go swimming with u liao...love u girl...take care lots!!!
andrew+ad+sani+eunice: thx for mugging with me...love u peepx too...
belle+pork: sorry i today pms...
+ the devil speaks + 2:56 PM
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
lol...all started after dinner with andrew eunice ad sani...we walked to a bus stop...onli to realise tt dun have my bus home...so i wanted to exercise a lil after dinner...so act smart lah!!!walked to the next bus stop with 61...i tot all the street lamps will help light up my path...hu noes it was a dark and lonely road...though it was beside the road...but i was practically walking in the trees!!!haha...den all the creepy insects and all those stuffs were all over the place...smashed my face through 2 spider webs...1st one was i didnt see...onli felt the web on my face after walking through it...2nd was no choice...it was a DAMN BIG one...those tt looks more like a cobweb den a spider web...the spider was at the side...so juz braced myself and walked through the damn thing...almost cried out...i was freaked out...the web wun come off my face!!!
next few metres were ok...onli dark and humid...den came the horrifying situation...i was onli like 6 metres away frm the bus stop...there's this short stretch of road...covered in dead leaves and the tree branches were hanging damn low and it was realli dark...with 2 bats hovering...it seems impossible to run through the area without them banging into me...tt was when i lost it...called eunice for SOS...luckily she was reaching the bus stop i was at...she alighted and "rescued" me...basically...i was like a small toddler running towards my mom...she counted to 3 den i juz dashed real fast and low...i didnt even dare to look back...was realli close...if she was already far away...i'd juz climb over the barricade and flag a cab home...i would've nv made it to the bus stop...
eunice: thx girl!!!ahaha...was realli funny...
+ the devil speaks + 11:50 PM
looked up his photos when he was still alive...he's so adorable...he was my pride even though i havent met tt little fella...been boasting so much abt him and wad im gonna do with him when i meet him...but it's been barely over 3 mths...tt little rascal left us for a place in heaven...
thx bro for such effort of sending his bones for cremation...even though he was juz a puppy...he was like my greatest joy...can still remember when my bro told me he got blake home...i got to choose the name for him...i was so excited...could hardly contain my joy...even though i noe i might not meet tt fella till yrs later...im realli contented to noe tt my bro has such a great companion in aussie...
though my bro complained to me how naughty blake was...there was always pride and joy in his tone...we both were so glad blake came to cross our paths in life...though i've nv had a pup before...blake realli showed me how joyful and how troublesome a little pup like him can be...
now tt he's gone...realli regretted not being able to meet him before...i love u blakey...will continue to miss you...
hey peepx...if u wanna check out blake's pic...juz go to my bro's fotopic.net...
+ the devil speaks + 1:05 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
realli funny...bet u guys nv seen me in town dressed in tee shorts and slippers...lol...plus today is like a PUBLIC HOL!!!dammit...but then...the qn is...hu's looking???haha...
was supposed to study at the hbf spinelli's today...but it was closed...so headed to the seah im food centre for brunch...head down to orchard library juz to find it under renovation...so closed...so out of impulse and desperation...we headed down to the BK at lyatt towers...the place was ok but the temperature was damn low...chilling...freezing...my hot tea didnt help at all...studied for barely an hr...went to cine...watched "son of the mask"...THE BABY AND THE DOG IS SOOOOOOOoooooooo CUTE...there's this part the dog damn poor thing!!!it tried to eliminate the baby but his plan backfired...in the end it suffered frm it's own plan...OUCH!!!but overall...the movie was kinda touching and funny and CUTE!!!(shit...im sounding like a bimbo now)
met up with yw ard 7...went delta for a swim...FAT LOSS SCHEME IN ACTION!!!lol...swam till my legs cramped...DAMN PAINFUL!!!but thank god i didnt drown...lol...it's not tt serious anyway but juz the pain...it's even worse den spraining my ankle during vball training...sprain was onli for tt moment...cramp is for mins!!!ouch...loved the swim today...gonna go for it again on sun...love ya girl!!!
belle: you better???
jee: sorry for all the pain...
NP peepx: all the best for papers!!!we'll have our share of fun after the exams...
+ the devil speaks + 11:46 PM
Monday, March 21, 2005
woke up late today...went bishan to meet up with belle and pork for a swim...swam swam swam...swam till my arms and legs went limp...been eons since i last swam...feel like a small kid who went to the waters for the first time...almost "drowned" myself a couple of times during the first 2 laps...after tt i got ok...but stamina is so damn lousy i had to stop every half lap...someone juz shoot me man...all the stuffs i learnt went back to my coach already...lol...wish someone can coach me on freestyle and butterfly...but for now...im juz gonna stick to breaststroke and doggie style...hahah!!!
had a "light" dinner at Mos...love the yakiniku rice burger...love the milk tea there too!!!went home after tt...belle and pork stayed on to study...so studious!!!almost got myself lost at bishan...had a tough time figuring out which bus goes to toa payoh interchange...in the end...clever little me got to toa payoh...took 143 all the way home...not much fun today...hoping for more...
belle: take things easy...being too sensitive doesnt help...relax ok???
eunice: sorry for this late greetings...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!!!
andrew: get well soon...you look awful trying to be rudolph the reindeer...
gab: your nick sux like hell...pls be more tactful!!!
+ the devil speaks + 10:43 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
started the day off by sending the girls off...had a simple fare at the coffeeshop with my mom...talked abt cera's departure...myself...alot of other stuffs...not exactly a heart-to-heart talk...juz a simple chat...
went town meet andrew...suppose to study at orchard library couldnt find table...so walked to coffeebean...tried to study but was too noisy...so after a light snack of choco brownie+tiramisu+latte...took a bus down to his church for a little talk on the Da Vinci Code...i gotta admit...i dun quite understand wad the speaker was talking abt...seems kinda out of point...i dunno...maybe im juz too tired to care much...
had a simple dinner at his church...met some of the peepx from FMSS there (sixiu slimmed down so much!!!)...hung ard with a few of his crappy pals...den his sis sent us to SMU to continue mugging...his sis left half to meet her bf...so left the 2 of us crapping in the study room...crapped most of the time...though studied more than usual...but still gotta buck up a lil...
went town for a light supper at mos burger...walked him to a lil distance off far east and took a cab home...kinda typical day for me...but damn tiring...haha...anyway...nth to blog abt nowadays except for my studying progression...so i'll slack a lil on my blogging alright???
belle: im so DAMN happy for u girl!!!dun be too sensitive ok???guys need space smtimes i tink...juz take it easy...u 2 will be fine...
andrew: thx for studying with me man...let's work hard together!!!
jee: rem to let me noe when u noe abt ur matriculation results ok???i'll be waiting...
+ the devil speaks + 3:12 AM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
spoke on the fone with andrew frm 3-4???ard there lah...damn tiring...didnt have much slp...didnt have a chance to study on the bus for the prac exam too...but luckily i noe most of the qns...not as bad i tot it would be...after paper went lunch with the usual gang at cnateen 4...den later went to mambo play pool with andrew pork ad eunice and some other ME guys...super suck!!!whole time onli got like 2-3 balls...super lousy!!!
super sad...had retest for IPC common test today 4-5pm but skipped it...cos i tink i got 49% for the whole thing...so even if i went for the retest...highest possible score will onli be 50...so no pt...add 1 more mark onli...so instead went town meet yw mat to buy vanessa's bday present...den went east coast park for her bday bbq...cycled frm 1 end to the other with yw within 50mins i tink???or was it 30???wadever...den took cab down holland v to meet gra hh...in the end they still at dover...so me yw got a carton of HL milk went to one of the playgrd tok cock sing song chat on fone till abt 11+...went to take a cab down to tiong bahru to FINALLY meet gra hh for out midnight movie: Boogeyman!!!
the show was alright...had it's scary parts but in the end v out of pt...so it was kinda like -_-"...it's a show that can be missed oso wun cry tt type...
walked home frm tiong bahru after the show...the 4 of us were like damn sweaty and warm despite the cool night breeze...now playing the Guesstures game with them while blogging...gonna be a great night ahead!!!
andrew: hey...cheer up!!!not ur fault at all...u're great in ur own ways...k???God still loves u!!!
+ the devil speaks + 3:48 AM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
been the 2nd day since i've studied late into the night outside...parents laxed a lil on their discipline on me...gd thing!!!studied with eunice pork belle andrew...first was at spinelli's HBF den moved to starbucks HBF to visit yw...her last day working tonight...haiz...gonna miss tt girl so much...had lotsa freebies today...
great time studying...though not exactly productive...but it was memorable...kinda depressed today...tot of all those peepx hu has left me...blen...blake...who's next???
andrew: you better get some slp ah!!!lamer...
jee: how have u been???been busy so cannot tok much to you...after my exams maybe??take care!!!-hops ard jee-
+ the devil speaks + 1:05 AM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
note: event took place yesterday 120305
a weird combination of sadness and happiness...a farewell and a birthday...farewell for my all time good fren yw and birthday for my man rauf...gonna miss tt girl man...all the times tt we've spent together...be it the 4 of us (hh+gra+yw+me) or juz the 2 of us (me+yw)...the times when we had the latenight kbox sessions...the comparison of who has the worse fashion sense...the silly jokes abt ourselves...and all those rubbish tt we do...hahah...realli gonna hang on to these sweet memories to tide me through the 9 mths while she's gone...in melbourne...no doubt tt it's gonna be a tough time for all us...i still wanna u all the best my dear...
enjoyed the birthday bbq...real fun...though the food wasnt realli delicious...but edible though...the chats and gossips abt joyce and lingling and all...realli brought me back to the sec sch days...was damn funny lah...enjoyed myself damn alot...poor rauf was pushed into the pool in the chilly night...gotta chased away by the security guard...lol...we were so rebellious...hahaha!!!
best part of the night was the in-the-dark blind mice...lol...the room was kinda small for 10-12 ppl...pitch dark other than the miserable toilet light...everyone was scattering ard the room...realli like mice lah!!!me and caleb did the bed-to-floor dive...pain!!!but damn funny...den we had the kissing and dirty dancing forfeits...lol...they said i dance like stick man...v stone...-_-"...lol...kissing game was damn funny...but i shall not name the peepx...lol...
went for blen's wake earlier tt day...saw his pics...room...dog...it seems like we can almost imagine him sitting on the bed crapping with us...laughing...realli damn depressing...realli wish he was there with us again...all well and healthy...but now he's gone...forever...but will always be alive in our hearts...memories...at least we're glad tt he's freed all agony and at ease knowing tt he's beside our Lord and Heavenly Father...gonna miss u blen...gonna miss u...
joke of the day: cut my hand while pouring ketchup...banged the bottom of the bottle and the bottle juz broke and the glass sliced into my palm...pain...but weird...
+ the devil speaks + 9:04 PM
Friday, March 11, 2005
sch as usual frm 8-1...but skipped maths lecture to do MOL for ppl...had mirza's belle's and andrew's acct to do...finished andrew's already (so many things not covered in maths lec...took a damn long time to do) left with mirza's and belle's...but feel v bad cos theirs if revision den i cannot do for them...the rodent nv activate the accts...die!!!
went back sch to meet up with andrew jeff and ian for vball (they're so enthu in it lah!!!)...had a short game only but really shagged out...andrew and jeff act sexy...played in jeans and went topless...levi's models wannabes...hahaha...but andrew is SO DAMN SKINNY!!!nice bod though...lol...drooling session today...but not enuff to keep me awake...
after vball went serangoon with andrew and jeff...andrew's teacher or someone was gettting married he gotta so serangoon prepare the present for her with his fren...loitered ard weijie's (andrew's fren) home till ard 10++...while andrew and wj left for pasir ris...i headed home and jeff went to meet his gf...send her home...so SWEET!!!!1yr 3mths 6days still so sweet...not like me...none of my relationships can last more than 1yr 1mth...haiz...but nvm...it's not meant to be anyway...
blen left us this morning 5:05am...realli depressed when i received the news frm jx when i was on the way to sch...teared silently on the bus...though didnt have much memories with him...it was still v upsetting for me...but after much thoughts...maybe it was better for him this way...he's free frm mortal agony...he's with his heavenly father...he's safe and found comfort in heaven...i noe the lord will comfort him...i will keep u in my prayers blen...i miss you...
+ the devil speaks + 11:40 PM
had the usual IS lessons today...had my OCom presentation so wore a set of formal wear...idiot andrew and ian they all say i look like a mother...kaoz...so ps...lol...vball was fun lah...but kinda sad cos it's gonna be the last time im gonna play with my team ppl...they keep saying i play till v fierce...wonder y???scrapped my knee today...PAIN!!!
stayed back after sch to do the end-product for our scientific presentation tml...turned out well...belle was kinda pek chek today...u take care ok gurl???me+mirza+pork+belle chionged chicken rice outside the science lab cos pork+belle had to rush off for their IAC...
after i parted with them...went to meet andrew+ian+chris+yongqing at atrium...all guys so i feel kinda weird lah...rushed my OCom reflection and typed out the scientific report...poor andrew didnt have time for lunch before his s&w makeup and the Project Nutz...me too...so ended up a hungry ghost...
oso proud of andrew!!!his Project Nutz team came in 1st...WOOT!!!lol...see them run oso tired siah...all siao one...chiong one!!!lol...if me i tink i will juz fall flat on the ground after 200m lor...CMI...rained during the Project Nutz today...so many poor souls had to run in the chill...
vball was kinda boring today...not much ppl turned up today...made frens with choon sien and rachel...cool peeps...gd at vball as well!!!skipped last 30mins of vball to meet andrew at clementi for dinner at harbourfront...he's so lame!!!enteretained me the whole trip to harbourfront...v malu!!!he tok so loud den v out of pt...haha...but cute lah!!!lol...kept wanting to help me carry my food and my bags...crazy fellow...hahaha...somemore still can say im not acting like a lady...-_-"anyway...tml still got vball session with andrew+jeff+ian..better get some rest now...bb!!!
jee: u ok???im realli sorry...be ok soon ok???at least try...
+ the devil speaks + 1:11 AM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
my frens kept reminding me to move on...no pt standing here waiting...he'd nv be back...so tt's wad i'll do...i'll forget abt everything...forget abt all the sms-es he sent before...as for the presents...the poohbear is too big to move abt...so i'd juz leave them there...all the emails that i've typed but not yet sent...i'd delete them as well...u may think that i am childish to try to erase everything that happened and pretend tt i dunno abt anything...if u're in my shoes...u'd wish u've nv lived...
had a great day with andrew eunice and ad...skipped maths lec to go queensway with them...andrew got a lee jeans and i got 2 levi's tops...maybe gonna wear to sch tml...after tt chionged down to cine for movie...it was a damn last min decision...wanted to catch hitch but didnt have seats...so caught the lemony snicket's...was kinda gd but not excellent...i'd give it 6 out of 10...but the baby was damn cute...andrew say look like me -_-"...
jee: im realli sorry...u're a fren i wanna keep for life...pls understand...
+ the devil speaks + 11:32 PM
read thru all the sms-es he sent to me ever since last yr when we first got together...all the promises of being with me forever...me being his last girl...never leaving me...always thinking of me onli...are all bullshit...as i read thru them...memories came flooding back...can rem all the little things that we did...like all the arguments on hu's gonna put down the fone first...last yr's vday when we spent the night at the bus stop playing and toking...falling aslp on the bus rides...drooling on each others' shoulders...all the tickles...MU gaming...gunbound team ups...so much memories...it hurts...when will i get over this crapshit?
already starting to clear away the stuffs in my hp and com...but the records of the sms-es i juz cant bear to delete...the 2 neo-prints we took...the presents and all...i noe i promised my frens to be ok...but man it's fucking tough...life's full of shit...
the onli thing worth being thankful abt is tt blen's getting better now...God's miracles on him is so unbelievable!!!thank God...may your healing hand be upon blen always...Amen!
+ the devil speaks + 1:19 AM
Monday, March 07, 2005
blake died today...my bro told mi over msn...he got hit by a car...he juz dashed out...my bro called out for him oso he nv turn back...next thing he noe...it's over...he's juz a lil puppy...
all the damn stuffs are drowning me out...realli wish i could leave them behind...
belle:
dun tink too much girl...i noe how it feels...i went thru it rem?i noe how much it hurts...it's like it's eating u up whole...it's painful...juz rem im here for u...
+ the devil speaks + 12:22 AM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
blen's still not awake...went to see him...he's still bloated...heartbeat damn fast...twice the rate of normal heartbeat...blen...pls be strong...i wanna be selfish this time...i pray tt Lord will let blen stay with us...no matter what happens...i believe all of us are willing to help him thru...i pray that Lord will grant us this miracle...Amen!
im single again....juz broke up with him abt 30 mins ago...maybe i wasnt gd enuff for him...wasnt an understanding gf in the past...we both admits that it was the business that killed our love...wadever that is...now that he's free...realli hope he'd get lucky with that other gurl...thx for the memories...
but at least my interclass team-ashoo...won 3rd placing...was proud of them...thx team...
+ the devil speaks + 1:19 AM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
he's still in coma...realli hope he'd juz wake up and look at us...had my first attempt to tok to him...though no respond...realli hope he'd hear us...but was cut short cos his mom came in...yw went along as well...but the moment she saw him she broke down...hh too...i was fighting so hard to keep my tears in...cos his mom dun like us to cry in front of him...he'd feel sad...heard he's gonna wake up tml...but no one's going with me to go see him...blen...pls be strong...pls wake up...realli sorry for the way we treated u last time...we'll be frens again when u wake up...
saw cheam in nuh oso...he oso had a dental surgery...had some gland swell in his lips...went to take it out...had stitiches...seemed painful...omg...but was glad to see him after such long while...at least he seems to be moving on well...
saw james in sch...still so vain...hair still dripping wet with water...lol...tt guy ah...realli one in a million...VAINPOT!!!
skipped lec today...so class ended at 12 for mi...was suppose to wait for gareth at 3 to go nuh together...but last min pang seh mi...so still had to wait till 4 to meet yw at dover...had nth to do...sms-ed so many ppl to pei me...but all got lesson...so eunice got andrew down...lol...he's so nice!!!skipped his lec to pei mi till 3...thx man!!!owe u one!!!if not i would've spent my time playing with spiders and spinning webs in sch...lol...
maths test today...didnt study...got onli a mere 50%...dunno whether to be glad tt i passed or should i punch myself in the face cos i'm juz on the line...dammit...
life's so screwed...someone get mi out of this shit!!!
+ the devil speaks + 11:32 PM