my little dirty life...

Race to Witch Mountain

2009-03-14T03:19:00.003+08:00

just came back from the movies with P.i dunno if im wrong but shes still sending me the "i like you" vibes.i dunno man.

i think ive got too much on my plate to take.im think im kinda just digging my own grave now.i dunno how to get out of it.S is still treating me as though im hers and P is just hanging ard my life making me so bloody confused.i know im damn mean but i dunno what exactly it is that i want!argh!

im tired.and whats worse is that im tiring my own self.another boozing session at timbre substation for max's 22nd.wonder if mark's gonna be there.it'll be fun if he is!haha.guess it'll totally crush his ego finding out that the girl who used to be with him is a lesbian now.ha!

im planning on gng aus with P this nov.kinda long away but im gonna start planning.so far we've got perth,melb and gold coast listed on our to-go list.gotta check out hotspots real soon!hope this trip will follow through well.

im still missing you cera!

my home is striped bare!!!

2005-09-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

bare i meant air-cons...all the units are gone in my home...cos dad wanna install a whole new air-con system...BUT I GOTTA LIVE IN THIS BURNING HELL FOR A WEEK!!!omg...a week without my essential air-cons...how do i survive???onli fan and open windows for the whole damn week...may god have mercy on me...

met up a short while with hh and yw...still the same...took ages to make a decision...but at least like wad yw said...got improvement...cos now we got the brains to actually SIT DOWN while making decisions with can range from 5mins to 5 days...lol...spider webs can form ard us man...

oh well...gonna go out after dinner with them for "lantern viewing"...lol...gng back in time to childhood liao...hope it'll be fun...nv tried doing this before...lol...

still looking forward to mon for the 1m05 outing...sun...water...sand...volleyball...pics...gossips...fun!!!lol...

god damn lazy...

2005-09-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

ahhhh...exams finally over...alls well ends well...OIAP interview on the 22nd...that would be naresh's dxo party!!!gonna be a hectic day man...been so lazy to blog these days...my life's running dry and dull...SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!feel kinda out of place these days...working partners...certain friends...it's either me or them...maybe i'm juz lagging behind or smth like tt...this kinda suck man...recall back the times when we had fun and all those silly stuffs...now it's so cold and distant...damn...should have treasured it while i could...but then again...if we were given a second chances everytime we wanted to...we wouldnt cherish life as much we do now...

dun realli have a realli close fren now...all's juz wad i would call surface friends...cant realli think of anyone whom i would realli relate to...oh well...there's always the times when we feel alone...dont we???been eating maggi for days now...sick of it...

mon's 2m05's class outing to sentosa...AGAIN!!!WOO HOO!!!cant wait to see everyone man...2m05 is like the best class ever since fmss 2c...i love them!!!but there's gonna be a day when we're all gonna turn strangers again...

and something interesting i've found out...my birthday falls on the same day as icha!!!hahahaha...how cool is tt???maybe can celebrate together???hahaha...tt's gonna be so weird!!!

saw someone realli special today at sch...missed her so damn much and *POP* there she is!!!lol...i love u girl!!!

it's been a long long time...

2005-08-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

it's been so damn fucking long since my last entry...been feeling so lazy lately...preparing for exams and all have left me tired and restless...mat's last day at SB-WT yday...my baby nephew turned 1 last sunday...my bro and cera coming back during the dec...looking forward to that!!!

my bro got me 3 paul frank tops...a whole bunch of cosmetics and a rip curl pencil case...love that fatass so much man!!!lol...

anyway...runni showed me this super damn racist blog against malays and muslims...guess i'll jot it down here for u guys to read...if u ever see or even noe that asshole who wrote that blog...do me favour...beat the hell out of him pls???

http://thesecondholocaust.blogspot.com

3rd month...missed gotham...sorry...

2005-08-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

sorry guys...i noe it's been quite some time since my last entry...juz got realli lazy nowadays...my bad!!!

anyway...2 days back was our 3rd month...caught a movie "the wedding crashers"...that show is damn nice man...funny...had alot of hilarious twists in it...but the ending was realli expected...cinderella ending...lol!!!after the movie...had steamboat dinner at suntec...the one that got us hooked on the smell???the food was nice...all POSB card holders get a discount on the meal...so check it out ppl!!!

anyway...bandzation happened yesterday...but it was realli a bang...first was there was no banner...2nd is that there's not much audience...3rd is of cos...my performance sucks...shaoxiang and mark tried realli hard but i tink i screwed it all up...the other band's performance was realli well though...the vocalist was GREAT!!!man...i got so much to catch up on...looks like i gotta get a band soon if i wanna improve on my vocals...oh well..it's irrelevant..anyhow...we somehow managed to squeeze something out of the pathetic little gig we had...

was supposed to go gotham with belle and eunice and pork...but didnt go in the end...realli hope they're not mad at me for the last min change...sorry girls...i didnt mean to...i realli wanted to be there with u guys...i was realli looking forward to that night cos i'll have a gd frens and my guy with me...but he suddenly say no money...den even if he forced himself to go he wouldnt have money to drink and all...so i was like thinking...wad's the pt...so i had to forsake it...i noe it's realli unfair to u girls...im realli sorry...dun hold it against me can???im sorry...

mark: happy 3rd month baby...

new hairdo AGAIN!!!

2005-07-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

cut my hair short...DAMN SHORT...juz slightly over the ears...side parting...dyed it chestnut brown with streaks of red...like the colour alot!!!but gonna cause a little prob when working...guess a cap will be a MUZ the next time i report for work...wad a waste of a great colour...haiz...

lesser and lesser stuffs to blog abt these days...life's getting realli boring...guess im gonna need more entertainment everyday...cant stand watching anime every night till i slp...it's so lifeless!!!

oh well...i'll be adding more and more links to my blog...of interesting sites and all...juz hope to be of some help when u guys feel bored and stuffs yah???

CT's over!!!

2005-07-23T01:43:00.000+08:00

common test's finally over!!!though i haven't preparing for it realli hard...but still glad that it's done and over with...out of the 4 papers i sat for...probably onli 1 is a sure pass...lol...sadly there's no break though...sigh...

now that CT's over...everyone's asking me out clubbing and chill and all...but where to find money?!?plus i still got my damn cough to deal with...cant touch cold drinks...shucks...learnt my lesson today...mark wanna go to harry's to "celebrate" that CT's over...so we spent $30 on a jug of bourbon coke and a couple of pool games...somehow managed to waste most of the afternoon...headed back home at ard 7++...we're tired i guess...well the house pour was nice though...since i cant club for now...guess harry's the best i can do now???

my bloody bro's out to the south of aussie i tink...with his pal who juz flew over...sms-ed me saying that he loved the wallet and he'll not be home for a few days...that guy...100% out drinking smoking eating and oogling at girls like he always does when he's with his pals...oh well...guys...bleah...

bro: get ur fat ass back home soon!!!mom wanna call u!!!

mark: thx for the drinks today...had a great time!!!

huihua: no worries...a meetup is coming right up!!!

i wonder why...

2005-07-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

2 papers for my common test is over for now...2 more to go...ABC and ACMB...been realli sick and all the past week...couldnt have a gd night's rest cos i'll be like coughing myself awake and gagging till i'll be running for the toilet...been walking to and fro my bedroom and toilet more than 10 times per night...cough's still the same...no gd...studying is kinda tough as well...due to the lack of rest...i'm kinda like a walking dead...not to mention i dun understand much of my lectures...

anyway...i noe lotsa peepx are studying their asses of so i shouldnt be complaining much...perhaps after the papers i'll take some time off work and books and juz hit the malls or beach...relax a little...chill a little...juz before the darn sch starts again...oh well...sch life sucks...

a day under the sun...

2005-07-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

had a GREAT time with my sweetie today at sentosa...wasnt realli an activity day...we juz laid there under the beautiful sun and tanned for hrs...didnt realli talked much cos we were realli beat from the studying and all those bullshit...things are taking a much better turn for us after that few times of quibbling with each other...now it's more like u-think-for-me-i-change-for-u thing...it's realli working out great...and im glad we're much more stable now...

anyway...we met at store to have a drink and a small meal at delifrance...left for sentosa...go a spot at siloso and tanned...after we decided to quit it...had a drink at the beach bar and fries...realli nice chillin' session together...took lotsa pics and talked lotsa trash...was realli nice and cosy...cleaned ourselves out of the sand and sweat and made our way to suntec-SB...visited vanessa...

poor girl seemed so tired and restless...well cant expect one to be so energetic when working at an ultra busy and posh and gigantic store like suntec...we've decided...on our 3rd month...we'd be having steamboat at suntec for a change...we're both in love with the smell of that indoor steamboat "kiosk"...the smell is like...the steamed fish with the black sauce we usually have at wedding receptions...it's realli amazing!!!

went back hbf for another cup of drink and made our seperate ways home...well at least for me...mark had to make his way to queenstown to meet his cousin...den make a long way to bishan to collect his bike...den make an even longer way home to bt batok cycling on his new gary fisher bike...juz hope he'll take a cab back home instead of cycling...it's juz NUTS to cycle from bishan to bt batok...may God have mercy on this poor child...Amen!

mark: thx hun for this wonderful day...it's realli great!!!we'll do it some time soon ok???love ya!

pam: i saw u on bus 97 today!!!u were in orange!!!lol...:P

cera: i miss u girl... :'( i feel like a bitch not sending u off...i realli hope to see u damn soon... :'(

ps: posted some new pics for today...check it out!!!

our 2nd month anniversary...

2005-07-08T18:48:00.000+08:00

well...yday was me and mark's 2nd month anniversary...it's not a long period but these 2 months meant alot...we somehow managed to meet each other everyday (except 1 day) despite our super ultra tight timetable...im sure it was realli tiring for him esp since he had to walk long distances juz to meet me...guess all the dreadful tireness and all the little arguments caught up with us...

wasnt exactly wad i would call a perfect celebration...had a fight through sms...almost broke down in lecture while sms-ing him...somehow managed to get a grip of myself...well...it all happened with a top i bought...anyway...i shall not get into too much of a detail...afterall it's something i would classify as private...it all started out of goodwill...but juz we had different stands...

wadever it is...im still glad we made it thus far...im still glad that we're willing to try somemore...im still glad we're still going on...im still glad i have him...im still glad we were given the opportunity to argue somemore in the distant future...im still glad we care for each other...im still glad we have the possibility of living together when we're old...im still glad we're given mercy from God...im still glad we're learning more and more abt each other with each passing second...im still glad i love him...

the bitch is in da house...

2005-07-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

had a CCTA test...dunno a single shit so anyhow bomb...forgot all abt it so didnt study at all...oh well...juz me being blur that's all...went hbf chill with mark after sch...waste time till 7 when he's uncle came to pick him up to go for his cousin's 22nd birthday dinner at marina...

went suntec starbucks with mirah...transferred some chips...serviettes and stuffs den went topshop shop for clothes...first thing that caught out eye was the 50% off...lol...both of us went totally berserk!!!went in...i tried on alot of clothes...budden not much suited me...so in the end onli left the store with a black V-neck top and this realli nice white sea-shell necklace...totall of $46 spent...went in dorothy perkins and saw this realli attractive handbag...it was realli simple but class...black soft leather with metal buckles...realli love it...i make sure im gonna go back there and get it real soon before it's gone...probably after i get my pay and allowance...

my bank acct realli emptied out now...left a few hundreds onli... :( realli regret shopping so much...den the bloody levi's square cut jeans cost me a big giant hole...but i love it all the same...

worse part of the day is walking to the bus stop...i was so happy over my shopping trip...i led mirah to the wrong bus stop!!!den mirah oso abit blur abt singapore's roads :p ...so it's like the blind leading the blind...end up at the wrong end of suntec...by the time we realised that...our legs are already giving way...realli cannot walk liao...so practically dragged ourselves back to the OTHER end again and took a bus to hbf...realli tired!!!

and this bitch living at my place now (sheila) is BUGGING me everyday...last night slp real late oso cos of her...dunno where the hell she got her energy man...after work still can tok so much rubbish for 2 hrs straight...not like im interested at all...she's driving everyone at home nuts...esp my mama...she bathe can bathe for AN HOUR!!!imagine our PUB bills this month...and now she's like knocking on my door (cos i locked it...learnt my lesson last night)...IS SHE DUMB OR BRAINLESS?!?when someone locks the door on u means they dun wanna tok to u...and she can still continue knocking!!!for almost 3 mins now...GET OFF MY FACE SLUT!!!U IRRITATING BITCH!!!

kor: pls get her out of our house...pls!!!im going crazy!!!and my common test coming and with her around the house bugging me...i'd rather stayover at my pals' place to study till the tests are over...HELP ME!!! S.O.S

mark: dun worry...u look great...dun scared fat...if u wanna compare...juz look at me...u'll feel tons better...

sheila: GET OUT!!!

hh+gra+yw: cant wait for thu...sorry i cant stay the time with u guys...realli sorry...but nevertheless i look forward to spending quality time with u guys!!!

bye vanessa...

2005-06-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

juz came back from our store chalet at sentosa coasta sands resort...was fun lah...had bbq and steamboat the day before...stayed overnight...drank alot...pek kee got drunk...lol...mat got sunburnt...lol!!as for me...got a little tipsy after drinking so lucky got mark to accompany me and take care of me...

today's vanessa's last day at SB-WT...everyone turned up...mat fasha mark pek kee cera falah mirah mimah...was a happy yet sad occassion...happy cos vanessa have a chance to work at the grandest SB in singapore---suntec...sad cos no more big breakfast (vanessa's style)...jk lah!!afterall she's been working with us for like half a yr already...there's definitely a bond between all of us...miss u girl...

cera's leaving soon too...next sat...haiz...realli kinda sad...i mean she came all the way back yet none of us had time with her...realli feel kinda bad...afterall she was my fren for like 5 yrs and counting...yet this return had nth special...kinda disappointed actually...

mark's starting his in-store training soon...cant wait!!!lol...realli muz admit...seeing him behind the bar is realli funny...esp him in the SB apron...OMG!!!

vanessa: will drop by suntec someday to see u ok???meanwhile take care!!!muz come back when u free ok???

mark: thx for taking care of me sweetie...lucky u can hold ur liquor well... :P

cera: girl...sorry for these few days...will try to make time for u ok???take care!!!

hazel cruize gig...but im not in it...

2005-06-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

tml's the big day for hazel cruize...live performance at PS...forgot abt the time though...check out xiong's blog...

bought a brown slippers for mark at topshop today...had a great time...was initially in polo tee and burms...but i got him to change into shirt and jeans before gng town... :P oh well...i like him in that!!!juz like how he likes me in polo and skirt... :P we're both so messed uP!!!

anyway...real sian of sch...common test coming up real soon...dun realli like that though...but wad to do...haiz...bloody poly...all fucked up!!!

oh yah!!!im gonna get my bro a braun buffels (however u spell that) wallet...real class and simple...mark says nice toO!!! :P im such a wonderful sis...hahaha!!!*shameless*

mark: great day with u today dear...glad u liked the slippers!!!

apple+vanessa: reallie happy to see u 2 in sch today...it's been so so long!!!

vanessa's leaving...

2005-06-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

super sad...vanessa's gonna leave for suntec SB on the 1st july...gonna be transferred there to be the shift manager...no longer at harbourfront already...gonna miss that dear girl man...onli manager hu let me take food and drinks for free...onli manager hu cooks realli well for us...onli manager hu's willing to splurge on us ever so readily... :(

mark's gonna join starbucks soon...provided my manager employs him...we'll noe by tue...but poor thing...lives at bt batok...if he does opening in future...how early is he gonna wake up man?!?haiz...but oh well...it'll be fun working with someone u love...can date and get paid...lol...one stone kill 2 birds...

hh dropped by today...treated her ice cocoa and whip cream with choco drizzle...lol...funny how that girl will NEVER get fat *jealousy*...and me?!?always gaining...never losing...wad the f***!!!

today was gonna be last time vanessa's gonna join us for drinking in store...was real fun...wani mat falla mark me vanesssa all got tipsy a little...smoking and drinking in store...lol...RULE BREAKERS!!!kilkenny...breezer...asahi dry...carlsberg...WOOT!!!lol...was real fun...but thinking abt the fact tt vanessa's leaving realli is kinda upsetting...oh well...gd things never...of cos...every rule has an exception...tt's me and mark!!!*prays*

mark: realli happy u're gonna work with me soon...but rem to practise tahan gongfu...cos of that PARTICULAR manager in store ah...lol...love u!!!

vanessa: so gonna miss u girl...rem to come back often ok???love u so so much too!!

hh: thx for coming down girl...realli glad u came... :D...anyway...hope u had a great dinner ok???take care!!!

almost past out from dehydration...

2005-06-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

super scary...today after school was hanging out at school bus stop with mark...den on the way back in...suddenly juz felt like so damn weak and nauseous...den couldnt get myself to continue walking to the canteen...juz hung on to mark...couldnt hold my balance...

den after awhile i started to black out...for a moment i tot i was on the ground already cos i couldnt see mark anymore...den he got me to sit down on the steps and drank water...slowly got better...perspired alot of cold sweat and i juz went pale he said...oh well...peepx...if any of u ever encounter this kinda feeling...juz keep gulping water...it helps...though u might not feel like drinking...juz force it down...

luckily for mark...if not i tink i'd be in hospital right now...lol...kinda freaked me out anyway...didnt dehydrate before...but definitely not something i would wanna try again... :P

hazel cruize gonna have a gig in town area on the 24th and 26th of june...ppl pls go and support ok???it's gonna be a great one i believe...

mark: thx sweetie...if it wasnt for u...i dunno wad will happen man...thank you!!!

yw: dun need to call me frm aus ok???im ok now...dun waste money ok???juz keep the emails coming...

happy birthday gareth!!!

2005-06-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARETH!!!lol...hh went to buy a tiramisu cake for gareth after her lessons at 1...as for me...i have lessons till 5...so everything was so disorganised...gra and ty not v sure...but we all met up at ard 4:45 at atrium...mark was with us as well...he super poor thing...hh they all dao him den onli use him as our photographer...oso gd lah...he's a great photographer...kinda pro in an artistic way...at least to me he is...

anyway...we had to rush things a little cos i end sch later den the others and gareth's training is at 5...kok yi lured gareth to the snack bar at the sports complex where we all are...with the cake all lit up...no presents though cos no time to get them... :P

loads of pics taken today...i'll post them up once i receive them frm gra...look forward to it peepx!!!

mark: thx for turning up baby...i noe it's been awkward for u but im realli glad u got to meet up with my pals...

hh gra ty kok: thx guys for making today's celebration possible for gareth...love u guys!!!

gareth: bro...dun so sad lah...today celebrate with u tt time u oso like abit sad...wad happened???tok to me ok???

belle+hedz: thx girls...

happy 1st month!!!

2005-06-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

today's the 1st month since the night me and mark went drinking at boat quay...the day we got together...but too bad both of us are realli broke this month...so didnt have any gifts and all those fancy stuffs...had a simple fare (cereal prawns+sweet and sour pork+kang kong)...a short game of pool and Madagascar at clementi...super budget...but it was realli fun...realli enjoyed myself...but the damn pain killers made me slpy...so didnt have much energy after movie...plus the damn dinner was so filling...i could juz puke on the spot...

mark got his electric today...$195...super dirt cheap...a great buy i would say...cant wait to hear him jam...he's been so sad since his dad threw away his ibanez...now that he has something to take the place for the time being...he muz be jumping right now...i noe he misses his electric...and since his dad has this something against electric guitars...he cant realli rave at home...so the plan will be putting his big amp at my place...so he'd juz bring over his cables and guit over and jam...though he's broke but can tell he's happier now...im happy too!!!

sch sucks for me...cos i was on MC for almost the whole damn week...i had lotsa practicals to make up...haiz...wish me luck ppl...OH YAH!!!pam's in my class now...hahahaha!!!

pam: welcome girl!!!realli glad u're with me!!!

mark: happy 1st month sweetie...take loads to care and hopefully we'd be able to for a proper drinking session next month...rem...POVERTY MODE!!!

hh: realli happy to see u today girl...haiz...gd things dun happen v often do they???haha...

smth's wrong with me...

2005-06-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

i dunno how to put these...juz feel my legs and left arm hurts alot once i move them...it's like whenever i move them...my muscles will ache the hell out of me...yday went bt batok polyclinic with mark to follow up on his chicky pox...den went clementi to watch Unleashed...all this time i cant walk much...walk abit onli the pain starts...getting more severe as time goes by...realli scared this will last for long...i dun wanna be coped up at home and forever lying on my bed immobile...

went to sch onli for 1 day this wk...wtf...ps eunice all alone...fever for 2 days...and now this...im realli down on my luck...alot of guesses for my aches...mark thinks it's the beginning stage of chicken pox frm him...parents thinks tt it's volleyball and work at starbucks...long hrs of standing and all...doc thinks tt it's juz the aftermath of my flu episode (i think tt's pure bull)...oh well...juz pray that this pain will be over realli soon...god pls help me...

eunice: sorry for these few days girl...didnt mean to skip sch but juz couldn't help it...once im well i promise to attend every single lecture with u ok???

fmss 2c'01: sorry dude...i heard abt the class gathering tml night but dun tink i can turn up...hate it when i cant make it for our gatherings...i so miss u guys...

mark: dun worry abt me hun...i'll be ok...juz as long as u're with me...

bro: keep everything in my blog to urself ah!!!dun tell a word to mom!!!or i'll skin u!!lol...miss ya anyway...study hard to ur exams...

cera: miss u girl...miss u so so much...come back soon...

everyone's falling sick...

2005-05-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

having fever and cough...all the damn thermometers in my house all out of batt...dammit...went mark's place to check out my temp...turned out to be 38.3...freaked out man...realised that i've been cut off frm all cyber contacts for days...mailbox flooded wil tons and tons of mails...

anyway...im out of hazel cruize now...the ex-vox wanted to have a gig with them and after tt darren and xiong going NS already...dun realli have a chance to get back in...oh well...kinda saw that coming...after the ex-vox was a real pro...time to scout for another one...la lala...

mark's having chicken pox now...massive lot...but at this age is realli unusual...the pox are all over man...face...body...lol...poor thing...

alrighty...gtg now...got sch tml...but still thinking if i shld turn up for lectures tml...if i feel better that is...eunice needs my instru notes!!! :P

mark: take care!!!heard onli idiots get chicken pox after 14 yrs old...lol...juz jk...get well soon ok???sch's realli boring without u...trainings are becoming so dreadful...

hh: miss u too girl...realli nice to see u and grace and ty in sch tt day...miss u all so so much!!!time to meet up soon!!!

pam&gang: real nice to spend those few moments with u guys...missed the times when we tok cock and chionged for tidbits during lecture breaks...lol...

sch starts...fuck!!!

2005-05-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

sch starts tml...and it totally spoils my mood...dammit...been so so long since i last blogged...been busy working and out with mark...juz to update you guys (and myself in future) wad happened...

1. got ty a brown bikini for her bday...
2. plans to go beach was foiled...somehow...
3. met a damn fucked up partner at PW-SB...a bitch named crystal
4. signed up for ivp selection... :(
5. yw sms-ed me!!!

anyhow...i gtg slp now...juz in case i cant wake up tml...i'll be sooooo dead...once again...SCH SUX SHIT!!!

followup on the model thinggy...

2005-05-12T01:45:00.000+08:00

lotsa ppl asked me after reading my previous blog...wanting to noe wad im gonna do abt it and wad happened and stuffs so here goes...

Qn 1: wad happened??
went there to check out with mark...had to fill in a form on some trash...had an interview...showed a thick photo album of some of the models there...GOD THEY'RE PRETTY!!!!lol...the interviewee checked out mark as well...lol...kinda cool...he did modelling before...WOOT!!!

Qn 2: wad im gonna do??
well...kinda curious abt it...plus they said some assignments could bring in big bucks...part of me wanna go for it cos of the pay and the fun of it...part of me doesnt cos i gotta pay like $268 for my portfolio first...fuck...

oh well...my mom doesnt noe abt it...bro tinks it's dumb...yanxia tinks i shld go for it...huihua is damn kpo abt it :P ...hahah...

poor mark spent like 6hrs at starbucks today...read till his eyes popped out...drank till he developed a phobia for caffine...lol...

sun burnt...OUCH...

2005-05-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

went for the vball thing for the freshies...had at least 8 batches of freshies...damn SIAN when i saw the crowd...tmd...taught them digging and service...anyhow teach lah...the weather was damn freakin hot and my skin is burning...super no mood...onli fun time was 2 on 2 with mark huihua yixian...lol...super OFF FORM ah...kinda disappointing...

nv enjoyed the bath after training before...the cool water cooling down my blistering skin...omg...SHIOK AH!!!budden skin v pain...red and all...ouch...my face...neck...hands...and the back of my legs...DAMN PAIN!!!reach home straight away chionged for my bed...tired!!!

halfway thru got some modelling agency called me...say ask me go down tml at 2pm... -.-"...sian...after tt still gotta go training...

hh: thx for coming down girl...will be damn boring without u lor...

ty: take care ah!!!ur knee like tt still go for trianing...siao one!!!!

cupid shot me!!!

2005-05-07T14:53:00.000+08:00

went for the suntec starbucks grand opening...had free flow champagne...cos im not realli into this kinda fancy cocktail party...realli bored the damn hell out of me...

was suppose to sneak into phuture again last night...but dammit...got denied at both zouk and phuture entrance...tmd~muz be got some events...tt's y they were so strict suddenly...dammit~

so in the middle of the night...called roy to find out tt they were watching movie...so cant meet me...so called mark...he was free so got him out...met at raffles place...end up went boat quay for a drink...had vodka lime...2 jugs of house pours and 2 shots of tequila (training hard)...ahaha...had a great chat with him...drank and chatted till abt 3:30 (there was police raid)...so went off to walk round and round clarke quay...ended up sitting beside the river...had a chat till daybreak...took bus ard singapore...slpt on bus...till ard 12++ he sent me home...

got home...found out my parents are out in town...and my keys not with me...so im locked out once again...worse is i gotta rush down to harboufront to meet up with the online auction guy to collect the COACH watch for my mom for mom's day...cost me and my bro $440...but the watch is damn gorgeous...wanna get one for myself as well...lol...but no money...my this month's pay all gone already...

mark: thx for ur company...wouldn't noe wad to do without u...

SB-WT: no worries lah...i cannot go in oso not ur fault...glad u guys enjoyed urselves...

slack slack slack...

2005-05-06T19:04:00.000+08:00

had the slackest training EVER...was raining real hard...was on the bus when i realised i left my socks and shoes at home...den i realli -.-" and felt like slapping myself silly...so stopped at harbourfront for a coffee...initially thinking of waiting for my mom to knock off and go home together or smth...den yixian and mark called...they had an extra pair of shoes at the clubhouse...so change of plans again...waited for the rain to lighten...den head to sch...

by the time i reached sch...was already 6:45...was freakin late for training...the guys already finished the routines...so all i did was 2 circuits (duck walk+push ups+sit ups+half sits)...was realli relaxing...cos training ended early...so stayed back till 8 to play a lil with the guys...

alright...gtg meet the peepx...cya till tml!!!

ps: anyway...got into health and lifestyle...thu...8-12...for all hu wanna noe...(probably none???)

jealous...

2005-05-04T01:32:00.000+08:00

lol...eugene's metal band doing a cd compilation with other metal bands...JEALOUS!!!!lol...when will hazel cruize get tt kinda chance?!?lol...damn eugene!!!u're one lucky ass*TOOT*...muahahha!!!oh well...we'll get our chance soon...:P

training today was slack lah...compared to thu...but coach ask me go down for thu training again :(...die lah!!!lol...nth much realli happened today...juz had a great laughing session with coach yixian and mark during dinner...tt's all for today i tink...till next time!!!

tianyin: eh...the guy's name is mark...since magnum and vball same training days...u sure can see him one...lol...

liang court attachment...

2005-05-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

first attachment out of store...kinda cool when vanessa told me abt it...lol...budden when i started work at liang court...i feel as though i was back to DAY 1 of work again...everything seems so unfamiliar and i got cold feet...haiz...became all klutzy and stuffs until wani came...maybe cos a familiar face was there den i stable a lil...

overall was ok...had wani with me so felt much comforted and at ease...time passed real quick cos of all the crowd so always got stuffs to do...lunch break maggi again *haiz*...

poor wani...i had to leave him alone after work cos my parents came to fetch me frm work and have dinner at little india...was suppose to go dinner with wani after work...feel bad siah...next time confirm go with him...hehehe...

a realli damn boring day...tml's vball training might be a killer again...omg...kinda dread going tml but need the trainings to slim down...haiz...

wani: thx boboy!!!if wasnt for u...i'd be lost in singapore...lol...next time promise dinner with u ok???

shopping for mom's present...

2005-04-29T22:26:00.000+08:00

woke up real late as usual (no work no sch)...first thing on my mind was to find someone go town with me...and sweet terry volunteered...lol...then yi xian called tok till 3:30...bathed and left home to meet terry in town at 5...went taka and paragon to find a nice coach watch...but all kinda ugly and or-biang...so me and bro decided on the one we saw online (black face silver belt...real classy)...

cos of yday's training...today had hell juz walking ard...not to mention climbing up and down the stairs...omg...OUCH!!!walked frm lucky plaza to PS to find mat and wani...had free drinks...went for dinner with terry...walk back to far east to look for him wristband (end up i bought one myself)...walked to taka again to get my mom's carrot cake...

imagine the dist i walked today...omg...poor me!!!

all shagged out...

2005-04-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

went for the first holiday training for vball today...damn tiring...happened to be the guys' training on thu with onli 3 guys and me...so training was extra fierce today...result of today's training was wobbly legs...aching arms...oh well...

started off with a 2 rds ard the track...last 100m sprint...den did shutter run...wheelbarrow with pushups to end off with...undernet digging which i did 239847329854757 times with my partner...my legs were like dead...panting like a dog...den had to do digging 200 times...wth!!!

rested for awhile...sat ard...drank water...den came hell...circuit training...5 circuits of steps jumps (grandstand seats)...push ups...sit ups...half sits...squats...burpees...omg...

after circuits...went back court for defence training...wha biang...my balls all everywhere fly siah!!!too long nv train already...plus i was all shagged out after all those PT...but the guys are real fun peepx...

went dinner with them at bt timah food centre...all the craps they spoke abt...cracked me up like crazy!!!lol...real fun peepx...

cooking "adventure"...

2005-04-20T03:06:00.000+08:00

almost had a heart attack today...was cooking maggi mee in store (not supposed to) when carlton (district manager) walked in...he happened to be at PSA building...so popped by...his "popping-bys" happen to last for more than an hr...dammit...den at tt time i was halfway thru cooking fasha's share of maggi...his saussages and veggies were done...left the maggi and egg to cook...so when carlton came in...all the food were all over the pastry area...i had nowhere to hide the stuffs...but luckily he went into the backroom to settle his stuffs first before coming out for a glass of water...i had tt few secs to stuff everything inside the pastry cupboard before he could catch me...

he hung ard...walk here and there...den settled inside the manager's room using laptop...so i used tt time to finish cooking fasha's share and he rushed to finish it...but all the food went cold already...poor thing...den when carlton went out to meet his frens...i rushed to cook lien's share and was halfway thru mine when he came back...i was like OH SHIT!!im dead!!!cos my maggi was still cooking halfway in the microwave...and he walked in!!so i used my body to cover the microwave and pretended to arrange the pastry case...lol!!!talk abt quick thinking...hehehe...but lien's maggi was still on the table in the backroom!!!but luckily carlton was blind...heheh!!!luckily he lingered ard for another 20mins or so and left...phew!~

was so bored during the evening...when selena came down to meet fasha after work...lien pulled a min and a half espresso shot...i made a con panna with it...den play black&white...lien lost...she sore loser...so made selena play scissors paper stone with her...in the end selena lost...but they both took a sip each lah...shld have seen their faces...whahaha!!hilarious!!!we made lien finish the whole thing...haha...feeling high man!!!woot!!!

day out...

2005-04-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

great day today...well...not exactly perfect but gd enough!!!

left home with mom to queensway to get her a new specs...she lost hers...so anyway...she chose a realli stylish one...brown colour...and one of the latest design...even nicer den mine now...but realli suits her...she looks damn classy...

after tt left for douby ghout to meet up with belle kenneth(belle's newest catch) eunice andrew ad sani...kenneth left after we all met up...so left the few of us to wander ard town...on the way to scotts for dinner bumped into andrew's 2 other frens weijie and wad's-his-name???anyway...the whole bunch of us went scotts foodcourt for dinner...andrew can realli eat man!!!had a soup+pasta+half of my pasta+garlic bread from pasta mania for ROUND 1 and another beef noodle for ROUND 2...tt pig...realli amazed me...where did all the food go to?!?

den daniel and roy came round town to pick me up...drove ard town...drove ard raffles city and ended up at chijmes for dinner...bloody daniel...tok abt being class and all the whole time...had a freakin expensive dinner man...dammit!!!$12 for onli 4 chicken and cheese crosquette(however u spell tt damn thing)...omg...gst was $6...split btwn the 3 of us...i had a $14 dinner for onli 4 tiniest fried chicken balls u can ever find...omg...DANIEL!!!!!!

walked ard suntec and citilink...wanted to catch a movie but the cinema was closed...haha...should have seen the look on roy's face man...how irritated he was when he had to walk so far from raffles to suntec for nth...whahaha...but lotsa jokes on the way...had a great time laughing...

den drove to holland for a PROPER dinner...i didnt eat...was kinda full frm the pasta and the $14 trash...so juz accompanied daniel and roy for their duck rice feast at holland coffeeshop...whahaha...tok abt being class man...i prefer quantity to quality at this pt of time...too young to tok abt class and elegance...

den daniel had to rush me home before 12 (my curfew frm my dad -.-")...was damn spoiler...if onli could stay out later...haiz...the day would have been perfect...anyway...on the way to my home...daniel's mazda got bumped by a taxi frm the back...he was so pissed...but lucky no damage was done...if not i tink the taxi driver would've been dead by now...hahah...wadever...dad was pissed with me for going home so late...oh well..do i care?!?

dan+roy: thx for cracking me up the whole time and for rushing me home on time...next time PLS meet up earlier???

ocean 5: thx for the day peepx...im ok...no worries!!!

daniel's first drive!!!

2005-04-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

kinda alright day for me today...at least i got to go town despite being sick and all...didnt like the feeling of being cooped up at home whole day...met up with W--- for movie...the pacifier...was hilarious...the baby was freaking CUTE!!!so cute u will die juz to pinch his rosy fat cheeks!!!hahah...was nice lah...

met up vanessa and mirah for dinner at taka seoul gdn...seriously my appetite dropped a hell lot man!!!didnt tough much of the food...but vanessa kept taking food for me...realli stuffing myself there...but i tink i didnt eat much this time...hmm...anyhow...it was realli fun...great dinner there...

den came the highlight of the night...roy called me up during dinner...asked me for a night ride in daniel's car (not sure if it's his)...daniel's driving...haha...was so excited man...cos daniel juz got his license so me...being kinda mountain...was excited over it lah!!!(ok...im dumb)anywayx...was fun lah...idiotic hazel cruize...came to fetch me from lucky plaza onli at 1030...if they came earlier...we could've went ard sg for awhile before dropping me off at my place...so wadever it was...i got daniel to drive me home first cos i promised my mom to be home early...plus i gotta work in the morning the next day...but they didnt noe how to get to my place (and neither do i)...so darren kinda directed daniel and eventually got there safely (excluding some wrong turns here and there)...was fun lah i gotta say...haha...now tt they've all got their license (i tink)...next time we go out wouldn't be a prob sending me home on time...hahaha...damn...now i realli wish i can drive...

daniel: congrats man!!!ur "virgin ride" was GREAT!!!

vanessa+wani+mirah: thx guys for the great day!!!

im still sick...

2005-04-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

2nd day since i fell ill...feel realli weak...worse than yday...fever hit 37.8 C...hmm...kinda bad...crawled my way to my family doc's clinic...got 4 packs of pills and a cough mixture...lazy to heat up last night's leftovers so got myself lunch frm the coffeeshop...realli bored...nv blogged so early in the day before...juz had my medications...waiting for the drowziness to come in before going to bed...

havent heard frm cera for days...no mails...no msn...guess she's still busy???her blog is still empty...haiz...realli miss that silly girl...wished she was here...den can hang ard my place...at least got company when im sick...

realli hope to recover by tonight...not fully lah but at least feel better...i hate to feel weak...feels as though im gonna fall anytime...haha...hopefully i'll be well by tml or smth...fri working opening shift...so need to be in gd health...wish me luck ppl!!!

cera:hey girl...missed u so much...drop me a mail when u free yah???

I'm so sick...

2005-04-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

omg...wad a day man...had sore throat last night while skyping with roy and daniel...tot i'd be ok after lots of water and ginseng tea...but i was so wrong...

woke up this morning with a WORSE throat...nose hurting a hell lot...my nose is realli...u noe the pain u get when ur air way to TOO smooth that it hurts each time u breath???im having tt shit now...and when my mucous flows...it's like water...i cant even feel a thing when it flowed out...super disgusting...i will NOT start webcam with anyone until i get in better shape...if not everyone will witness the flowing ceremony of my mucous...eeewwww!!!

working today was alright...got mimah and vanessa and lien to help...tried the komodo dragon blend...yuck!i hate sampling session...cant describe the coffee...they all taste the same to me!!!anyway...have waffles with butter and maple syrup to pair with the komodo dragon blend...hate the coffee...loved the waffles...hahaha!!!mat did closing with fever as well...hmm...waddup with fever and all???IT'S KILLING ME!!!

wild night!

2005-04-09T17:41:00.000+08:00

went clubbing at phuture+zouk with vanessa wani mirah mat and some of their frens...even met eunice and her pals there!!!first time there (i noe i damn caveman) so i was kinda blur and stuffs...vanessa made me up to look older and more matured...look realli damn different...felt so "not-me"...hahaha...but they say i look better lah...so...oh well?!?

waited for vanessa and wani to knock off work at starbucks den took cab down...was realli realli lucky!!!the bouncer didnt bother to check IC (first time siah!!!)...vanessa said usually they're damn strict abt age limits and stuffs...so...im pure lucky!!!

went in the club...was damn cool...lotsa peepx...the party was getting started so ppl started coming in...love the ambience at zouk...had a starter drink of bourbon dry juz to get things started...den had another glass of vodka lime to warm things up...vanessa was there to watch my drink limits...

den went phuture to dance...starting was damn weird cos no one was dancing at all...they were all juz bouncing away...till happy hour...when drinks were 1 for 1...i had a long island tea...den i juz lost it i guess???hahaha...started dancing and stuffs...poor wani had to watch his drinking limits cos he had to take care of us...esp me!!!haha...was realli nice...and wild...was a night i nv experienced before...vanessa's fren treated me breezer...was realli nice...when feeling high...everything juz spun round and round...juz cant stop dancing...haha...bloody wani keep saying i no backbone...idiot...but was realli great...didnt have to worry abt guys coming to mess things up cos we're not hotties and i was realli protected cos there were adults...

it was realli a night to enjoi and throw everything aside for that few hrs frm 11-4 in the morning...lol...they said i was damn hyper...couldnt stop...lol...maybe tt's for first-timers???haha...the drinks were realli nice...WOOT!!!they said to go once a month is enough...and when my bro comes back...he's gonna treat me to a club too...he said it!!!

kor: realli sorry...i noe i promised u not to think abt going but im realli in the wrong this time...sorry...dun be angry...

wani: thx for the cab home and taking care of me the whole night!!!

vanessa: thx for the night boss!!!

im finally over him...

2005-04-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

im finally getting used to being single...haha...it's like a feeling that i havent felt for such a long time...hmm...dunno to be happy cos i can bitch abt other guys now or should i be sad cos this kinda things should happen to me???haha...anyway...wad's happened to me wasn't realli that great an impact that i tot it would be...i'm still strong...and i will stay strong for all those who still loves me...

anyway...to all my beloved frens...thx alot for the support i've got frm u guys when i was realli down...when my life was at the lowest...when all the bad stuffs were happening all at one time...when i feel realli lost without direction...when i almost felt like i was the onli one left...thx...

kor...thx alot for being there giving me advices and reminding me that nth is too great for ur sis...thx for keeping me up even when u're so far away...for all the nights u've spent chatting with me...u noe u're the greatest...i dun have to say it out loud...i love u so much...miss u...

yw!!!u still havent update ur blog siah!!!miss u so much as well...realli hope to see u again real soon...feel so lonely...realli hope for the best for u...study hard ok???and stop crying ur eyes out everyday...not nice ok???be strong...

back to work...

2005-04-04T21:43:00.000+08:00

lol...first day back to work since my study break started...abit slower in making the bar drinks...lol...spilled quite abit of things...juz not as smooth as i was before i started exams...haha...wad you expect man!!!2 weeks break frm working ya noe?!?

super funny incident while at the POS...it was my first transaction of the day somemore...lol...the customer had a $11.95 meal so he gave me $51.95...i'm suppose to give him back his $40 change...den i was so blur!!i juz took the money and forgot to give him back his $40...and i didnt even realise!!!haha...den the conversation was like...

"erm...i gave you $51.95?"
"yah?"
"my meal is $11.95"
"yah?"
"can i have my $40 back?"

omg...i was so embarassed!!!hahaha...den my partner (wani) said it was daylight robbery...whahaha...realli embarassed!!!hahahaha...cannot make it ah!!!

feels kinda weird without yw to work with me...kayen's also quitting cos her sch starting den her dad dun allow her to work anymore...if i quit too...den my whole batch of partners all gone...haiz...dammit...im gonna get stuck there forever man...

another new hairdo...

2005-04-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

yeappers...i noe i broke the promsie i made to myself (not to spend another cent on my head for the next few mths) but my hair realli cannot make it...it's damn dry...damn ugly...damn hard to handle...so i went for ice rebonding today...haha...treated my mom to red henna as well...juz treat it as a pampering session after my papers...lol...

was suppose to chat with yw gra hh on msn last night but msn had to be down at midnight...dammit...it was our arranged timeslot with yw!!!kaoz...but yw couldn't stay awake anyway...so even is msn was working...the chat session will not be on as well...

anyway...life's realli boring...anyone got any nice games to intro???

bye cera...

2005-03-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

yeah...this is it...cera realli left for aussie...initially was postponed to next mon but last min say gotta leave immediately yday night...745pm flight...got notified at 11++am...was realli shocked and all...vanessa me cera wanted to go for a dinner yday night...was prepared to forsake my notes for tt dinner...hu noes had to cancel cos she's gonna leave...

was a realli sad day for me...my closest gf left...wun be able to go kbox with her...wear like fashion disasters to town...chomping mint chocolates...stayovers...swimming...bitching...eating...making fools out of ourselves...working together...doing morning shifts together...rotting behind the counter...doing silly stuffs entertaining ourselves...so many memories we had...realli hope time flies...realli cant imagine how my next 1 yr is gonna be like without someone to hang out with...without someone hu shares the same fashion as me...without someone to call me out...damn...life's gonna be so tough...

was realli hard to let go last night at the airport...promised not to cry until at least after she goes in the departure gate...but the moment i saw my dear pal...the moment i hugged her...tears were juz coming down...cried the shit out of myself...realli gonna miss you...i am already...starbucks peepx got her a mrs field's cookie cake but she couldn't bring it over...so she gonna keep it till she comes back singapore...gra hh ty mc yt and the 2c gang came to send her off...realli regretted turning up so late...had so little time to say our goodbyes...but i was glad it was fast...if not i would've juz cling onto cera...dun let her go...haha...

yw: dun come back like a MGS girl ok!!!stay fairfield...so gonna miss you...cant wait to see the new u...the aussie u...muz buy things for me ok!!!surf wear and all...and u cannot slim down ah!!!if not i dun dare go swimming with u liao...love u girl...take care lots!!!

andrew+ad+sani+eunice: thx for mugging with me...love u peepx too...

belle+pork: sorry i today pms...

bats attack!!!

2005-03-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

lol...all started after dinner with andrew eunice ad sani...we walked to a bus stop...onli to realise tt dun have my bus home...so i wanted to exercise a lil after dinner...so act smart lah!!!walked to the next bus stop with 61...i tot all the street lamps will help light up my path...hu noes it was a dark and lonely road...though it was beside the road...but i was practically walking in the trees!!!haha...den all the creepy insects and all those stuffs were all over the place...smashed my face through 2 spider webs...1st one was i didnt see...onli felt the web on my face after walking through it...2nd was no choice...it was a DAMN BIG one...those tt looks more like a cobweb den a spider web...the spider was at the side...so juz braced myself and walked through the damn thing...almost cried out...i was freaked out...the web wun come off my face!!!

next few metres were ok...onli dark and humid...den came the horrifying situation...i was onli like 6 metres away frm the bus stop...there's this short stretch of road...covered in dead leaves and the tree branches were hanging damn low and it was realli dark...with 2 bats hovering...it seems impossible to run through the area without them banging into me...tt was when i lost it...called eunice for SOS...luckily she was reaching the bus stop i was at...she alighted and "rescued" me...basically...i was like a small toddler running towards my mom...she counted to 3 den i juz dashed real fast and low...i didnt even dare to look back...was realli close...if she was already far away...i'd juz climb over the barricade and flag a cab home...i would've nv made it to the bus stop...

eunice: thx girl!!!ahaha...was realli funny...

in loving memory of blake...

2005-03-29T01:05:00.000+08:00

looked up his photos when he was still alive...he's so adorable...he was my pride even though i havent met tt little fella...been boasting so much abt him and wad im gonna do with him when i meet him...but it's been barely over 3 mths...tt little rascal left us for a place in heaven...

thx bro for such effort of sending his bones for cremation...even though he was juz a puppy...he was like my greatest joy...can still remember when my bro told me he got blake home...i got to choose the name for him...i was so excited...could hardly contain my joy...even though i noe i might not meet tt fella till yrs later...im realli contented to noe tt my bro has such a great companion in aussie...

though my bro complained to me how naughty blake was...there was always pride and joy in his tone...we both were so glad blake came to cross our paths in life...though i've nv had a pup before...blake realli showed me how joyful and how troublesome a little pup like him can be...

now tt he's gone...realli regretted not being able to meet him before...i love u blakey...will continue to miss you...

hey peepx...if u wanna check out blake's pic...juz go to my bro's fotopic.net...

swim with yw!!!

2005-03-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

realli funny...bet u guys nv seen me in town dressed in tee shorts and slippers...lol...plus today is like a PUBLIC HOL!!!dammit...but then...the qn is...hu's looking???haha...

was supposed to study at the hbf spinelli's today...but it was closed...so headed to the seah im food centre for brunch...head down to orchard library juz to find it under renovation...so closed...so out of impulse and desperation...we headed down to the BK at lyatt towers...the place was ok but the temperature was damn low...chilling...freezing...my hot tea didnt help at all...studied for barely an hr...went to cine...watched "son of the mask"...THE BABY AND THE DOG IS SOOOOOOOoooooooo CUTE...there's this part the dog damn poor thing!!!it tried to eliminate the baby but his plan backfired...in the end it suffered frm it's own plan...OUCH!!!but overall...the movie was kinda touching and funny and CUTE!!!(shit...im sounding like a bimbo now)

met up with yw ard 7...went delta for a swim...FAT LOSS SCHEME IN ACTION!!!lol...swam till my legs cramped...DAMN PAINFUL!!!but thank god i didnt drown...lol...it's not tt serious anyway but juz the pain...it's even worse den spraining my ankle during vball training...sprain was onli for tt moment...cramp is for mins!!!ouch...loved the swim today...gonna go for it again on sun...love ya girl!!!

belle: you better???

jee: sorry for all the pain...

NP peepx: all the best for papers!!!we'll have our share of fun after the exams...

swimming craze!!!

2005-03-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

woke up late today...went bishan to meet up with belle and pork for a swim...swam swam swam...swam till my arms and legs went limp...been eons since i last swam...feel like a small kid who went to the waters for the first time...almost "drowned" myself a couple of times during the first 2 laps...after tt i got ok...but stamina is so damn lousy i had to stop every half lap...someone juz shoot me man...all the stuffs i learnt went back to my coach already...lol...wish someone can coach me on freestyle and butterfly...but for now...im juz gonna stick to breaststroke and doggie style...hahah!!!

had a "light" dinner at Mos...love the yakiniku rice burger...love the milk tea there too!!!went home after tt...belle and pork stayed on to study...so studious!!!almost got myself lost at bishan...had a tough time figuring out which bus goes to toa payoh interchange...in the end...clever little me got to toa payoh...took 143 all the way home...not much fun today...hoping for more...

belle: take things easy...being too sensitive doesnt help...relax ok???

eunice: sorry for this late greetings...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!!!

andrew: get well soon...you look awful trying to be rudolph the reindeer...

gab: your nick sux like hell...pls be more tactful!!!

maths mugging...

2005-03-20T03:12:00.000+08:00

started the day off by sending the girls off...had a simple fare at the coffeeshop with my mom...talked abt cera's departure...myself...alot of other stuffs...not exactly a heart-to-heart talk...juz a simple chat...

went town meet andrew...suppose to study at orchard library couldnt find table...so walked to coffeebean...tried to study but was too noisy...so after a light snack of choco brownie+tiramisu+latte...took a bus down to his church for a little talk on the Da Vinci Code...i gotta admit...i dun quite understand wad the speaker was talking abt...seems kinda out of point...i dunno...maybe im juz too tired to care much...

had a simple dinner at his church...met some of the peepx from FMSS there (sixiu slimmed down so much!!!)...hung ard with a few of his crappy pals...den his sis sent us to SMU to continue mugging...his sis left half to meet her bf...so left the 2 of us crapping in the study room...crapped most of the time...though studied more than usual...but still gotta buck up a lil...

went town for a light supper at mos burger...walked him to a lil distance off far east and took a cab home...kinda typical day for me...but damn tiring...haha...anyway...nth to blog abt nowadays except for my studying progression...so i'll slack a lil on my blogging alright???

belle: im so DAMN happy for u girl!!!dun be too sensitive ok???guys need space smtimes i tink...juz take it easy...u 2 will be fine...

andrew: thx for studying with me man...let's work hard together!!!

jee: rem to let me noe when u noe abt ur matriculation results ok???i'll be waiting...

tiring but fun day...

2005-03-19T03:48:00.000+08:00

spoke on the fone with andrew frm 3-4???ard there lah...damn tiring...didnt have much slp...didnt have a chance to study on the bus for the prac exam too...but luckily i noe most of the qns...not as bad i tot it would be...after paper went lunch with the usual gang at cnateen 4...den later went to mambo play pool with andrew pork ad eunice and some other ME guys...super suck!!!whole time onli got like 2-3 balls...super lousy!!!

super sad...had retest for IPC common test today 4-5pm but skipped it...cos i tink i got 49% for the whole thing...so even if i went for the retest...highest possible score will onli be 50...so no pt...add 1 more mark onli...so instead went town meet yw mat to buy vanessa's bday present...den went east coast park for her bday bbq...cycled frm 1 end to the other with yw within 50mins i tink???or was it 30???wadever...den took cab down holland v to meet gra hh...in the end they still at dover...so me yw got a carton of HL milk went to one of the playgrd tok cock sing song chat on fone till abt 11+...went to take a cab down to tiong bahru to FINALLY meet gra hh for out midnight movie: Boogeyman!!!

the show was alright...had it's scary parts but in the end v out of pt...so it was kinda like -_-"...it's a show that can be missed oso wun cry tt type...

walked home frm tiong bahru after the show...the 4 of us were like damn sweaty and warm despite the cool night breeze...now playing the Guesstures game with them while blogging...gonna be a great night ahead!!!

andrew: hey...cheer up!!!not ur fault at all...u're great in ur own ways...k???God still loves u!!!

mugging day 2

2005-03-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

been the 2nd day since i've studied late into the night outside...parents laxed a lil on their discipline on me...gd thing!!!studied with eunice pork belle andrew...first was at spinelli's HBF den moved to starbucks HBF to visit yw...her last day working tonight...haiz...gonna miss tt girl so much...had lotsa freebies today...

great time studying...though not exactly productive...but it was memorable...kinda depressed today...tot of all those peepx hu has left me...blen...blake...who's next???

andrew: you better get some slp ah!!!lamer...

jee: how have u been???been busy so cannot tok much to you...after my exams maybe??take care!!!-hops ard jee-

farewell cera/happy birthday rauf+tim w BBQ...

2005-03-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

note: event took place yesterday 120305

a weird combination of sadness and happiness...a farewell and a birthday...farewell for my all time good fren yw and birthday for my man rauf...gonna miss tt girl man...all the times tt we've spent together...be it the 4 of us (hh+gra+yw+me) or juz the 2 of us (me+yw)...the times when we had the latenight kbox sessions...the comparison of who has the worse fashion sense...the silly jokes abt ourselves...and all those rubbish tt we do...hahah...realli gonna hang on to these sweet memories to tide me through the 9 mths while she's gone...in melbourne...no doubt tt it's gonna be a tough time for all us...i still wanna u all the best my dear...

enjoyed the birthday bbq...real fun...though the food wasnt realli delicious...but edible though...the chats and gossips abt joyce and lingling and all...realli brought me back to the sec sch days...was damn funny lah...enjoyed myself damn alot...poor rauf was pushed into the pool in the chilly night...gotta chased away by the security guard...lol...we were so rebellious...hahaha!!!

best part of the night was the in-the-dark blind mice...lol...the room was kinda small for 10-12 ppl...pitch dark other than the miserable toilet light...everyone was scattering ard the room...realli like mice lah!!!me and caleb did the bed-to-floor dive...pain!!!but damn funny...den we had the kissing and dirty dancing forfeits...lol...they said i dance like stick man...v stone...-_-"...lol...kissing game was damn funny...but i shall not name the peepx...lol...

went for blen's wake earlier tt day...saw his pics...room...dog...it seems like we can almost imagine him sitting on the bed crapping with us...laughing...realli damn depressing...realli wish he was there with us again...all well and healthy...but now he's gone...forever...but will always be alive in our hearts...memories...at least we're glad tt he's freed all agony and at ease knowing tt he's beside our Lord and Heavenly Father...gonna miss u blen...gonna miss u...

joke of the day: cut my hand while pouring ketchup...banged the bottom of the bottle and the bottle juz broke and the glass sliced into my palm...pain...but weird...

another tiring day...

2005-03-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

sch as usual frm 8-1...but skipped maths lecture to do MOL for ppl...had mirza's belle's and andrew's acct to do...finished andrew's already (so many things not covered in maths lec...took a damn long time to do) left with mirza's and belle's...but feel v bad cos theirs if revision den i cannot do for them...the rodent nv activate the accts...die!!!

went back sch to meet up with andrew jeff and ian for vball (they're so enthu in it lah!!!)...had a short game only but really shagged out...andrew and jeff act sexy...played in jeans and went topless...levi's models wannabes...hahaha...but andrew is SO DAMN SKINNY!!!nice bod though...lol...drooling session today...but not enuff to keep me awake...

after vball went serangoon with andrew and jeff...andrew's teacher or someone was gettting married he gotta so serangoon prepare the present for her with his fren...loitered ard weijie's (andrew's fren) home till ard 10++...while andrew and wj left for pasir ris...i headed home and jeff went to meet his gf...send her home...so SWEET!!!!1yr 3mths 6days still so sweet...not like me...none of my relationships can last more than 1yr 1mth...haiz...but nvm...it's not meant to be anyway...

blen left us this morning 5:05am...realli depressed when i received the news frm jx when i was on the way to sch...teared silently on the bus...though didnt have much memories with him...it was still v upsetting for me...but after much thoughts...maybe it was better for him this way...he's free frm mortal agony...he's with his heavenly father...he's safe and found comfort in heaven...i noe the lord will comfort him...i will keep u in my prayers blen...i miss you...

tiring day...

2005-03-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

had the usual IS lessons today...had my OCom presentation so wore a set of formal wear...idiot andrew and ian they all say i look like a mother...kaoz...so ps...lol...vball was fun lah...but kinda sad cos it's gonna be the last time im gonna play with my team ppl...they keep saying i play till v fierce...wonder y???scrapped my knee today...PAIN!!!

stayed back after sch to do the end-product for our scientific presentation tml...turned out well...belle was kinda pek chek today...u take care ok gurl???me+mirza+pork+belle chionged chicken rice outside the science lab cos pork+belle had to rush off for their IAC...

after i parted with them...went to meet andrew+ian+chris+yongqing at atrium...all guys so i feel kinda weird lah...rushed my OCom reflection and typed out the scientific report...poor andrew didnt have time for lunch before his s&w makeup and the Project Nutz...me too...so ended up a hungry ghost...

oso proud of andrew!!!his Project Nutz team came in 1st...WOOT!!!lol...see them run oso tired siah...all siao one...chiong one!!!lol...if me i tink i will juz fall flat on the ground after 200m lor...CMI...rained during the Project Nutz today...so many poor souls had to run in the chill...

vball was kinda boring today...not much ppl turned up today...made frens with choon sien and rachel...cool peeps...gd at vball as well!!!skipped last 30mins of vball to meet andrew at clementi for dinner at harbourfront...he's so lame!!!enteretained me the whole trip to harbourfront...v malu!!!he tok so loud den v out of pt...haha...but cute lah!!!lol...kept wanting to help me carry my food and my bags...crazy fellow...hahaha...somemore still can say im not acting like a lady...-_-"anyway...tml still got vball session with andrew+jeff+ian..better get some rest now...bb!!!

jee: u ok???im realli sorry...be ok soon ok???at least try...

moving on...

2005-03-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

my frens kept reminding me to move on...no pt standing here waiting...he'd nv be back...so tt's wad i'll do...i'll forget abt everything...forget abt all the sms-es he sent before...as for the presents...the poohbear is too big to move abt...so i'd juz leave them there...all the emails that i've typed but not yet sent...i'd delete them as well...u may think that i am childish to try to erase everything that happened and pretend tt i dunno abt anything...if u're in my shoes...u'd wish u've nv lived...

had a great day with andrew eunice and ad...skipped maths lec to go queensway with them...andrew got a lee jeans and i got 2 levi's tops...maybe gonna wear to sch tml...after tt chionged down to cine for movie...it was a damn last min decision...wanted to catch hitch but didnt have seats...so caught the lemony snicket's...was kinda gd but not excellent...i'd give it 6 out of 10...but the baby was damn cute...andrew say look like me -_-"...

jee: im realli sorry...u're a fren i wanna keep for life...pls understand...

memories hurts...

2005-03-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

read thru all the sms-es he sent to me ever since last yr when we first got together...all the promises of being with me forever...me being his last girl...never leaving me...always thinking of me onli...are all bullshit...as i read thru them...memories came flooding back...can rem all the little things that we did...like all the arguments on hu's gonna put down the fone first...last yr's vday when we spent the night at the bus stop playing and toking...falling aslp on the bus rides...drooling on each others' shoulders...all the tickles...MU gaming...gunbound team ups...so much memories...it hurts...when will i get over this crapshit?

already starting to clear away the stuffs in my hp and com...but the records of the sms-es i juz cant bear to delete...the 2 neo-prints we took...the presents and all...i noe i promised my frens to be ok...but man it's fucking tough...life's full of shit...

the onli thing worth being thankful abt is tt blen's getting better now...God's miracles on him is so unbelievable!!!thank God...may your healing hand be upon blen always...Amen!

blake...

2005-03-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

blake died today...my bro told mi over msn...he got hit by a car...he juz dashed out...my bro called out for him oso he nv turn back...next thing he noe...it's over...he's juz a lil puppy...

all the damn stuffs are drowning me out...realli wish i could leave them behind...

belle:
dun tink too much girl...i noe how it feels...i went thru it rem?i noe how much it hurts...it's like it's eating u up whole...it's painful...juz rem im here for u...

worst day of my life...

2005-03-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

blen's still not awake...went to see him...he's still bloated...heartbeat damn fast...twice the rate of normal heartbeat...blen...pls be strong...i wanna be selfish this time...i pray tt Lord will let blen stay with us...no matter what happens...i believe all of us are willing to help him thru...i pray that Lord will grant us this miracle...Amen!

im single again....juz broke up with him abt 30 mins ago...maybe i wasnt gd enuff for him...wasnt an understanding gf in the past...we both admits that it was the business that killed our love...wadever that is...now that he's free...realli hope he'd get lucky with that other gurl...thx for the memories...

but at least my interclass team-ashoo...won 3rd placing...was proud of them...thx team...

2nd visit...

2005-03-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

he's still in coma...realli hope he'd juz wake up and look at us...had my first attempt to tok to him...though no respond...realli hope he'd hear us...but was cut short cos his mom came in...yw went along as well...but the moment she saw him she broke down...hh too...i was fighting so hard to keep my tears in...cos his mom dun like us to cry in front of him...he'd feel sad...heard he's gonna wake up tml...but no one's going with me to go see him...blen...pls be strong...pls wake up...realli sorry for the way we treated u last time...we'll be frens again when u wake up...

saw cheam in nuh oso...he oso had a dental surgery...had some gland swell in his lips...went to take it out...had stitiches...seemed painful...omg...but was glad to see him after such long while...at least he seems to be moving on well...

saw james in sch...still so vain...hair still dripping wet with water...lol...tt guy ah...realli one in a million...VAINPOT!!!

skipped lec today...so class ended at 12 for mi...was suppose to wait for gareth at 3 to go nuh together...but last min pang seh mi...so still had to wait till 4 to meet yw at dover...had nth to do...sms-ed so many ppl to pei me...but all got lesson...so eunice got andrew down...lol...he's so nice!!!skipped his lec to pei mi till 3...thx man!!!owe u one!!!if not i would've spent my time playing with spiders and spinning webs in sch...lol...

maths test today...didnt study...got onli a mere 50%...dunno whether to be glad tt i passed or should i punch myself in the face cos i'm juz on the line...dammit...

life's so screwed...someone get mi out of this shit!!!

happy birthday mom!!!

2005-02-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

my mom's bday today...but seems like smth's missing this yr...guess cos my bro's not here...didnt prepare any gift for her cos we (me+bro) ran out of ideas...so we wanted to gif her a $100 ang bao...but my fault lah...woke up late today so couldnt go withdraw the money for her...so most prob transfer to her thru internet banking lor...lol...

went sakae for dinner...my dad paying so splurged alot on the sashimi and stuffs...was cool lah...cos first time i can order without caring abt the price...ate and ate and ate...ate till we surrendered...after dinner went to starbucks to see my colleagues and got myself a hazelnut latte and my dad a mocha...mom didnt noe how to appreciate starbucks coffee so she passed on it...when waiting for bus to go home...tot i saw shaun lin...scared the hell out of me...heng it wasnt him...lol!!!all the horror came drowning me once more...onli then i knew i havent outgrown the terrible past...feel so trapped suddenly...the memories doesnt seem to go away...

haiz...everyone hates my team...

2005-02-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

lost both matches during polympics today...scores were damn close i was told...but the fucking referee was damn biased against us...service touch line say dun haf...holding say not...touch net say never...wad the man!!!1st match's referee was an asshole...guai lan...piss us off...caleb kept shouting "touch line touch line!!!" bloody pa jiao asshole say nv...gave the pt to the opponent...den still tell caleb "im the referee...not u"...wha kaoz...

2nd match referee was a lil better...but still damn gd at pissing ppl off...kept denying the fouls the opponent made...den during timeout...caleb went to ask "u sure is not holding?u sure not touch net?"...asshole juz say NO...tmd...but dun even dare to look at caleb and say lor...bloody liar...juz refuse to accept tt we are the BEST!!!LOL...bunch of losers...

fucking irritated!!!

2005-02-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

dammit man...had a damn irritated day!!!my bloody manager irritate mi the whole time...when im at the cashier...stand behind me and keep lecturing by my ear...wad the fuck!!!everything i do oso wrong...like he's damn right!!!my ass!!!den when i was serving the sumatra cheesecake to customer...cos the cake damn sticky...so the paper wun come off...bo bian have to use my hand...den he came over say till like i damn dumb...den he took over...bloody hell used the thong to rid of the paper...cos it's damn sticky tt's y he make till the cake damn ugly...like one lump of dough...pissed mi off...

den yw took over the cashier tt time...she took an order of a coffee eclair...bloody manager kpo go take the eclair himself to serve...take wrongly took the chocolate one...den later scold yw for not saying clearly...IS HE PA JIAO SEE WRONGLY LOR!!!

he's a damn fucker...can u imagine a person so assholic he can piss 2 saints off within a few hrs???tmd...i wish he'd juz disappear...

pass my bar test...wooohooo!~

2005-02-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

passing mark was 27/30...lol...i was damn damn damn lucky to pass...say my score was 29/30...screwed up 3 drinks-low fat caramel machiato+americano+hot cocoa...lol...i failed my hot cocoa cos i forgot abt the syrup and tt cost mi the 1 pt...my caramel machiato was cos my foam was bad so the caramel topping sunk...looked damn ugly...but cannot blame!!!at first the foam was damn nice...budden after i steam my milk got customers' orders...so i gotta put the foam aside...mini slam so when i got back to my machiato...my poor foam become damn bad liao...haiz...americano was ok...but my manager wanted my to do 4 shots at one go...so kinda screwed up lah...budden cos i tink she saw me doing the customers' order...those were alright...so i tink she understands so she passed mi...

havent seen yw for damn long...always worked alone...cos she gotta help out her family for cny...sian ah!!!YW!!!faster come back!!!miss u so much...

dammit...sch gonna start in a few hrs time...SIANSATION to the max...lol...and my MOL is still not completed...argh!~

we're toking now...and im glad...thx!~

new hairdo yet again...lol!!!

2005-02-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

SUPER HAPPY!!!lol...had a new hairdo again...hehehe!!!this time i had a half-short-half-long kinda hair(if u get my drift)...but no worries if u cant pic me...i'll post up pics asap...juz take a peep and comment ok???realli need to noe how i look...first time doing such hair...suddenly my head feel so light...loL!!!from 4 yrs of long hair...FINALLY a change...lol...

anyway...regarding the manager hu IGNORED mi the whole damn time...i dun gif a damn liao...onli today i realised the true colours of that jackass...earlier on he made me and yw believe that the store manager was a bitch(but she proved herself to be one when she chased us away...but tt's another issue)...but today i heard so much more and realise we've been barking up the wrong tree...we trusted in the wrong person...apparently...he's a

attitude problem dude
onli nice to u when he needs a favour
super demanding/sets damn high standards
gonna get sacked if another customer complains abt him...again...

lol...some kinda judgement i have man...starting to doubt if i even have brians...

im being ignored...

2005-01-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

was a damn sad day at work today...reached work on time lah...budden was feeling kinda sian cos i gotta do the espresso and frappe bar today...den cos i screwed up my espresso bar the last time...so not v keen on screwing up again at it today...so when i went there...face kinda sian...went into backroom saw my manager playing game...so dun wanna disturb him lah...so nv say "hi"...so juz wore my apron and punched my card den started work liao...

today espresso bar was quite alright...onli my steam milk still look like rock bun...budden the shots so far i pull all gd lah...within the time frame...drinks oso i can make liao onli not confident of my steps onli...my partners was damn friendly lah...zhen yang stuck to me the whole time to teach mi stuffs on espresso and all...was a great coach lah...budden my manager WHOLE DAY nv even look or tok to mi...dunno wad i did wrong siah...den i oso dun dare to ask him wad's wrong...juz kept my dist from him the whole time lor...he joked and played with others BUT mi...feel realli bad...feel like a jackass...like i did smth so damn wrong tt i pissed him off so much(maybe i realli did)...zhen yang and fasha told me it's cos im new and he does this kinda "commando" training for all new comers...bullshit like wad "being treated the worst to be the best" rubbish...budden fasha oso new comer wad!!!wtf lah...

did a little on the cashier area...so suay!!!got a slam when i took over to "practise"...kaoz...some kinda practise siah...SO MANY PPL lah!!!somemore got some idiot say their orders so fast...nv gimmi time to key in the buttons...need to find one mah...den still got ppl use credit cards and atm...tmd...make mi so damn confused...den my drink calling oso ganna sai...dammit lah...hate my day at work...

heading towards destruction...

2005-01-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

first is my work...screwed up the expresso bar today...could onli manage a Americano...so shitty...steam the milk till like rock bun...BIG BIG foam everywhere...so much harder to do compared to during training...scalded myself a lil with the steam...couldnt do latte and cuppacino...the 2 core drinks at the expresso bar...tmd...almost cried when jeremy was "lecturing" mi...i noe he's not scolding nor screaming...juz pek chek training me...esp when nth seems to get into my head...haiz...juz gotta try harder or quit...lol...

plus my r'ship seems like shit now...he called mi today...the conversation was realli brief and to the point...he juz told me wad was on his mind...i juz didnt noe wad to say...juz stoned thru-out...guess a break-up was alreadi at the tip of his tongue...juz tt he didnt want to upset mi...thx for sympathising...cant imagine how v'day's gonna be like this yr...exactly our 1 yr anniversary...wad an irony...

dead tired...

2005-01-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

im so damn screwed...tml's my mircorbio paper and i havent even start studying yet...dammit...damn tiring today...learnt how to make frappe...frappe mix...cream mix...coffee-of-the-day...iced tea and iced coffee...of cos still got bussing(cleanliness)...grinding coffee beans and all...TIRING AH!!!

this entry's gonna be damn damn short cos i gotta get back to my notes soon...had a long day...made lotsa frappe drinks today with yanwen...practised drink calling and drink marking...but overall was fun lah...juz tt we were a lil klutzy when we made our FIRST frappe without recipe and all...so didnt noe wad to do...had to ask for help from the other baristas there...lol...but luckily the customers were patient and understood the stiuation...i tink they muz be laughing their ass off when observing us make the frappe...lol...

ok...gtg...study break over...time to hit the books...

GOD DAMMIT!!!

2005-01-21T07:33:00.000+08:00

screwed up my "1st" day of instore training...me and yw woke up late at abt 6:30 in the morning...supposed to be there by 7 so we're supposed to wake up at 5:50 or smth...somehow we both woke up late...if yw didnt call me at 6:45 i tink i'll still be slping...i wouldnt be here blogging early in the morning...

anyway...reached that damn place 5 mins late...we took a cab down and already tried our best...we even called on the cab to say tt we'll be 5 mins late...poor yw had to run all the way with her back injury...plus we did closing the day before...so my legs hurt like crazy from all those long hrs of standing(cos im still not used to it)...i bet yw's hurt as well...but too bad we cannot let her noe abt us training the day before under jeremy(we'd rather jeremy than tt BLOODY pk)...so in the end we chased us home...say wad "we've done everything already"..."i've got nth to teach u"..."i had to do tt cos i dun wan other partners to follow"...WAD CRAP!!!i bet my ass she doesnt do tt to the other 3 she hired...I BET MY ASS MAN!!!BITCH!!!so damn pissed off...most poor thing is yw...her back still havent recover lor...had to run so much...

we're not afraid of pissing her off actually...WHO THE HELL GIVES THE DAMN ABT TT BLOODY SLUT?!?we're juz afraid tt she'll blame jeremy for hiring us...somemore jeremy RECOMMENDED us lor...omg...i feel so bad...i hope jeremy's not mad at us...feel like changing my next week's shifts to jeremy's one...i dun wanna see that bloody assface again...she pisses me off big time...SORRY JEREMY!!!

first day of training...

2005-01-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

went to GB tower at shenton road for my first training for starbucks...today was on "starbucks experience"...was kinda fun lah...knew a couple of new peepx...but all cannot put perfume so all smell kinda weird lah...LOL!!!but overall was alright...luckily got yw to accompany me thru-out...if not i tink i'll die of boredom...

got a whole variety of ppl...got a lot waiting for Os results...got a gurl(ivy) waiting for As results...got 2 former baristas who juz completed NS...one of them even got cornrows lah...but are extensions...not real hair...but still looks nice lah...he looks like a jamaican...

today's module on "Starbucks Experience"...all kinda bullshit lah...juz how to serve ppl onli...hahaha...skipped sch juz for tt...can u believe it???but im glad i did lah...if not no chance to go k-box after tt...with yw...

fun day at cold storage...

2005-01-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

was kinda like a weird day for me...ended sch at 10...which is damn freaking early...had an almost an hr project meeting...den went to get my passport-sized photo taken at SIM the photo-taking machine(the one in mr. bean show)...4 pics for $6...but turned out kinda funny...i wasnt looking at the "cam" at all...cos i didnt noe where it was...and half of my forehead gone cos i too "tall"(nah...cos i didnt noe will cut off)...those were for work...

den later rot in the sch library for almost an hr plus...when ty called to say not playing vball after sch liao(i was suppose to wait till 3)...so i called jee out for lunch at holland...actually wanted to go back home after lunch...budden was curious abt the cold storage seafood counter...so tagged along...and he promised me to "sneak" me in behind the counter for awhile...but it ended up the whole afternoon...it turned out to be actually quite fun...watching jee slogging his ass off peeling prawns and scaling fish and cutting and digging for the intestines *yuck*...had to risk encountering his managers a couple of times...but eventually still got discovered by his dept manager and "big big" manager...lol...dunno wad will happen...i tink he's screwed...

screwed up my "first impression"

2005-01-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

woke up at abt 1...washed up and all and left home at abt 2...went to bugis to meet yw after her jam session with her band...met randall bk and peh at bugis kfc so settled our lunch there as well...happily eating till abt 3++...realised we're kinda rush for time since we havent get the mono-black converse shoe for work...so rushed the the converse at bugis onli to find that they dun sell that shoe...so gotta take a train to heerens's converse to get tt shoe...there onli left with sizes 7 and 8...since we were desperate...we took them...though they're kinda big...then took a cab down to hbf to meet up with the asst branch manager...for the "first impression"...so much for that man...we totally screwed up...we were like 10mins late...the manager actually called us to find out where we were...NOT GD!!!when we reach there we still had to change into the dress code and shoes and take off all the blings we had on us...we were in a mess man...we were given 10 mins to change and all...to to be exact...we were late for 20mins...haiz...

but luckily we got away with a brief warning...i forgot to clean off my black nails so i got an extra lecture from her...dammit...anyway...we got out "coffee passport" and the "core learning journey" to start off our training at the HQ...BUT we are still hired despite our silly mistakes...

im a starbucker!!!

2005-01-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

gonna work at hbf starbucks real soon now...tml's gonna go down in full dress code for the "first impression" with the manager...dunno wth she's gonna do to us...me and yw working there anyway...next tue gotta start attending the course/training...hafta skip a couple of lectures...gonna get paid ard $220 AFTER we complete training...den $4/hr when we officially start work...pay kinda avg now...but heard they're gonna revise it damn soon...so will increase...hopefully...

sch's kinda boring and dull now...i can hardly keep myself awake during lectures too...screwed up my maths quizzes and all...basically...im a a pile of trash...BUT not for long...common test coming in 3 wks' time...luckily my training'll end before that...

now officially a vballer liao...gonna be busy from now on i guess...and he's not v happy abt tt...thinks tt he's kinda "extra" now tt im so indepenent...someone teach me wad to do...

hair loss prob...

2005-01-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

haha...finally took out my braids...a super "shiok" feeling..can finally scratch my scalp with ease...simple bliss...but my hair were all curly and sticky and yucky...in short: i look like a poodle...hahaha!!!a black one...but my hair went straight after my bath...and v nice smell...and v smooth...onli thing is tt it's like onli half of the volume left...lotsa hair droppped...when i shampoo...and i condition...and when i comb...my hair dropped out bunch by bunch...machiam cancer patient...expected the hair loss lah...but the amt of hair juz scares me a lil...hehehe!!!but not enough to keep me from doing it again...

yday was ben ben's bday...met up with the usual 2c gang for a bday dinner at PS swensens...poor ben ben spent lotsa money on all the drinks and fries...haha...had a "fish" baked rice but ended up with a chicken one cos of some miscommunication...hahha...but it was nice lah...once again...HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN!!!my beloved bruthur!!!

congrats to my fav gf of all times...LAI YAN WEN!!!cos she got into my fren's band as a female vox...cool huh!!!it was like our dreams of all times to be in a band...so congrats to yw for fulfilling her dream!!!YEAH!!!her new band consists of randall+jere+bk+peh+her...SO COOL!!!im gonna be their first groupie...hehehe...seeing yw so happy now...i oso wanna fulfil my dreams...haha!!!got motivated...

i got my own son-blake...

2005-01-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha...juz jk!!!blake is my new doggie...damn damn damn excited abt it's existance...actually ppl will say that im crazy...cos i wun be able to see him till abt 2 yrs later...here's everything...

my bro in aussie studying...he got a new doggie...a pedigree jack russell...he's so small...so cute...onli 4 wks old!!!HAHAHA...can u imagine???but he wun be sending blake back to singapore cos it's too expensive...the taxes and all other rubbish will total up to abt 500 bucks...might as well get a new dog here right???so he's gonna keep it there till he grad and birng it back with him...so can be considered as MY dog as well...since i wun be able to see him...i get to name him...isnt blake a great name for a great dog???den i can get doggie stuffs from here den send them over to aussie..at least i play a part in his growing up???hahaha...today went to harbourfront after sch den went past a pet shop...saw a realli cute overall so i got it and another toy which u can stuff food inside den blake will have to figure out how to get them out...so nice right???somemore blake can bite on the toy when he starts growing teeth...hehehe!!!first time i spend money spend till so happy!!!

toking abt money...i feel like working at the pet shop leh...but the pay is damn damn low...$2.50 per hr as basic...den every item i sell get 1%...every animal i sell i get 10%...IF i'm damn good at talking...i can make abit lah...budden muz work at least for 6 mths...den 2 times per week...need some advise here...help me peepx!!!

boring new year...

2005-01-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

was damn damn damn boring man...gra hh me and yw met up in town...had a lil "dinner" at secret recipe at ps...den me and yw went to tb for movie Meet the Fockers...cos hh gotta go back church and gra went to meet her jon jon!!!(i still tink Meet the Parents better...funnier)...was damn boring...luckily i got yw with me...if not i tink i'll rot my night away...after movie...we wanted to go back town again...cos tb is so damn deserted...if u shout...there'd be echoes man...like a graveyard...we tot everyone will be at sentosa...but i was wrong...all the immigrants from little india flocked to town...attacked ppl with their snow cans...so irritating...we onli stepped out of the mrt station for a few seconds...we're covered in snow already...argh!~in the end we gave up...went back to my home for the night...

watch tv...crapped abit and went to bed...next day went town again after lunch...checked out the sony ericsson service centre and got my self a ripcurl skirt...IT'S TO DIE FOR!!!damn nice...yw got a couple of stationary and rushed back home to finish her work before mon...tt's all for new 2005 countdown...fun huh???-_-

merry xmas peepx!!!

2004-12-25T03:42:00.000+08:00

DAMMIT!!!MY PRECIOUS POST GOT DELETED...AGAIN!!!!!

haiz...gotta type again...damn long!!!went to sch as usual...till 1 (thx belle for ur cupcakes and fotos...they're realli GREAT...thx eileen for your card...it's so SWEET...thx vanessa for your DELICIOUS chocolates...and all other who cared for me all these while) den went down town with belle and porkie...got a realli expensive reef slippers for gra...DAMN DAMN DAMN NICE!!!but the size doesnt fit...wasted!~went for a wanton mee at graffiti cafe (DUN ever try it...waste of $$$ and time...wanton mee=black sauce mee...sux like hell)den rushed home to catch a realli short nap before i gotta rush back to town again...

reached town at 6 to met the fmss 2c'01 gang...almost the whole gang was late!!!waited and waited...queued at the pizza hut at PS for damn damn long...started dining onli at ard 8...but at least the meal was entertaining cos of wilfred (but charles couldnt make it cos he gtg japan)...cheap and realli filling...WORTH IT!!!but didnt prepare present for dewi and elena cos i didnt noe they were going...so pai seh...rauf got a realli nice hairdo as welL!!!so today took lotsa photos of our hair together...cos my cam's night mode damn damn laggy so lotsa the pics turned out damn blurred...wanna get a new cam!!!

as usual...lotsa IDIOTS sprayed the "snow can" at us...den cos of my present hair i cannot wash it that often...so i had to "protect" my hair...forced myself to wear a sweater (cos of the hood) in the damn weather...HOT AH!!!but still...got one BLOODY ASSHOLE sprayed directly at my face...isnt it damn obvious that i dun wanna get myself "foamy"???that guy's a retard man...hope someone else spray foam in his mouth...idiot...he met me+gra+hh+yw for a short while...to talk onli...so it wasnt exactly a date...before that he was selling snow cans at cine...den after he left me...he went out with his frens...hh left with zy...gra left with jon...so left me and yw...GO HOME LOR!!!

but got lotsa presents today lah...ty=ripcurl pencil case+bracelet+hair clip+socks...him=DIY bears with birth certs+pooh bear cup set...he made the bears at the factory itself...so sweet right!!!den he named them after us in the birth cert...heard it's realli expensive...so cos of this....i'll FORGIVE him for leaving me alone on xmas...my mom's colleague=pooh biscuit+sweets+diva photo frame...hahaha!!!MERRY XMAS PEEPX!!!

was kinda hurt actually cos i wanted us to go walk together...but after u left with jw they all...i felt abit lonely...seeing gra and hh leave for their guys...i feel even worse...but im ok now...

NEW ME went to sch for the 1st time...

2004-12-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

everything was so exciting...kinda weird as well...cos the moment i step out of the cover of the 61 bus...eyes are all on me...well...mostly...felt kinda naked...though the SIM stop dun have much peepx tt time...it was cool lah...been damn long since i had so much attention on me...kinda funny...to make things worse...me and pork were late for lecture for almost 15mins...so you can imagine how tense i felt...uncertainty and all...the last time was when i had my "mushroom head" during sec 1...WHAO MAN!!!ALL LAUGHTERS WERE ABT ME!!!but looking back now...it juz adds on to my "once upon a time" stupidity...hahaha...

lotsa peepx were like touching my hair and stuffs...playing with it...asking me so many stuffs like "how much?" "pain not?" "how to wash hair?"...hahaha...suddenly feel all the peepx in my lecture became damn cute...like small kids...my classmates really gave me lotsa support i needed...compliments and all juz made me feel more confident abt myself...hahaha!!!thx guys...maybe going for cornrow dreads next time...after i give my scalp a lil rest...wait for my hair to grow again...and when i dun hafta do anymore sports...or all the perspirations will make me stink more...

cya guys tml...real cool to have my pals around...be it from np or fmss or rmps...you guys rox...

the new me!!!

2004-12-18T02:03:00.000+08:00

yay!!!damn damn happy today...after being blown off by the salon a thousand times...i finally got a slot today!!!so skipped my maths lecture and chiong-ed down to get my hair done-cornrow braiding...was hell lot of pain!!!but it turned out real nice...so i guess i have no regrets bah!!!cost me $200!!!wonder who can sponsor me like half of the cost???hahaha...overall was really great!!!onli let 2 tiny drops of tears out...cos it was damn freaking pain!!!go check out the pics man...my hair looks so damn nice!!!

spent my whole day in town today...spent the evening with him...caught National Treasure...was a damn good movie...you realli should catch it man!!!i'm serious!!!it's damn nice plotting...den spent the next hour or so with porkie...had dinner with her....budden i feel so bad...her frens like kinda left after i "snatched" her away...oh no!!!after porkie left...took a bus down to meridien hotel to look for my mom...but ended up attending the last few moments of the party with her...but it wasn't exactly wad i would call fun...juz imagine being in a ballroom...with lotsa uncles and aunties or the younger ones would be kor kor and jie jie...got nth but soft drinks for me...FUN???hahaha...but it was realli satisfying seeing my mom enjoying herself there...felt gd myself...and if my gut feeling doesnt fail me...i tink there's a guy hitting on my mom...hahaha...

had lotsa stares from ppl around town...but kinda got used to it after abt 1/2 hr...got one guy say my hair was cool and another bimbo kinda gurl asked me where i got my hair done...hahah...was real fun anyway...

bad mood...

2004-12-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

everything is so damn screwed now...realli hate them for the way they are...friends and love...wad the fuck man...someone pls shoot me...i'll be eternally grateful...

things are kinda suck between the 4 of us...read hh and gra blogs...realli made me feel so upset...no wonder yw is tearing...it juz seemed that we are all breaking up...dunno wad i can do for them now...realli wish things will be norm again...i realli wish those 2 are feeling better...juz in case i said things that hurt u guys...i wanna apologise ok???hope we're still frens again by the time we meet up again...cheer up guys...though i noe it's tough...jia yoU!!!never wanna lose anyone of u!!!

been a realli tough time for me...seems like the arguments are starting again...and it's all v hurting...sux!!!feel realli hurt...feel realli bad...everything's going the wrong way...it's not the way i ever wanted them to be...if i knew these were coming...wad's with all these rubbish man!!!

everything's so bad now...my frens are in a crisis now...and me and him are having cold war...i realli feel v awkward ard him...ever since the quarrel...ever since he said things to hurt me...i'm not as strong as i seem to be...can u pls try to understand???though i'm good at toking back...it's all that i have to defend myself...so pls stop testing me!!!

hh's right...feeling the same sentiments as her...it's a joyous season...so y am i not feeling glad???sometimes we say things that we didnt mean...but no matter how...time will never turn back for no one...the person u said it to is already hurt...whether u mean it or not...i'm one living example...

happy belated birthday dad!!!

2004-12-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...yday was actually my dad's AND hwa's bday...so coincidental right!!!hahaha...was realli a day of coincidence yday...check this out!!!

had to break my date with the fmss 2c peepx cos i had to go dinner with my parents...den was kinda sad lah...but family comes first (at least sometimes) so we went takashimaya the restaurant GhenGhis Khan...had a buffet dinner...the meal was damn damn nice!!!my dad chiong-ed for the oysters and scallops and all other seafood...my mom chiong-ed for the sashimi and sushi...as for me...i chiong-ed for the pregnant fish and tiramisu and cheesecakes...hehehe!!!took a little pics of the food lah...cos we werent suppose to take pics at all...plus all 3 of us were so damn busy eating...my bro was so SWEET!!!he msged my dad a birthday sms from aussie...hehehe!!!

den when we were waiting to be seated...guess which bunch of idiots i saw???THE FMSS 2C PEEPX!!!MUAHAHAHA!!!so surprising right!!!didnt noe they were eating at the seoul garden...which is juz OPPOSITE the restaurant i'm in...den i kept running to and fro from the 2 restaurants...i tink the waiters oso see till blur...now u see me now u dun kinda thing...hahaha!!!poor hwa!!!he got a choco cake face smash!!!hahaha...was damn funny...den gra and charles are the comedians of the day...when these 2 idiots meet ah...it's always laughs...

my parents left for home after dinner...den i went to join with my bunch of idiots...had lotsa fun man...but i guess i kinda pissed my mom off a lil...cos the next day...which is today...my sch at 8...hahah!!!anyway...it was realli damn funny...damn fun...no regrets at all!!!

got new pics uploaded...check them out!!!

MST sux...

2004-12-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

so sucky!!!the maths lecture was damn damn boring...didnt even bother to listen...juz buried my head in the papers and do the hw due tml...so stress!!!hahah...gotta finish algebra and indices...sianx...still half way thru indices now...lucky me!!!i got hh's work as reference...and i REALLY mean reference...i nv copy hor!!!

today kanna pang seh by belle...was suppose to weat skirts...den she turned up in jeans...and me in a bloody mini skirt...and it's realli damn MINI...feel so naked walking around...tml confirm wearing jeans liao...wanna protect my undies...muahahaha!~tml's dress code most prob cap...damn poser!!!

didnt get to meet him at all...onli managed to get him on the fone for a couple of mins...sad case...today realli past damn slowly...i was so tired!!!omg...

thur's hwa's bday...fmss 2c peepx celebrating...fri meeting up with wilfred and all...dun noe how to tell my mom...later she'll flare at me...die...later cannot go how???scared scared...

today's entry is damn damn out of point...cos im taking a break from maths...so anyhow blog a lil here and there...poor belle...now still working...

feeling so lazy...school blues...

2004-12-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

omg...feel so damn sian to blog liao...hahah!!!anyway...had a quite a nice weekend at yw's place lah...all the crap that we 2 town gurls can do...it amazes me man...we are damn damn spontaneous lor...carry a fucking huge bag to stuff my lappy and a set of clothes in...was sweating like a pig when i finally met her downstairs her house (check it out man-22 stories high)...den have to backtrack a distance cos she say wanna get 8-days...den walk the whole estate cannot even find one...all sold-out cos the cover is taufik and sly (wad's the big fuss abt them man)...den walk pass a vcd rental shop...on the spot decided to rent a few shows to watch thru the night...got 5 pieces-"supersize me" "house of flying daggers" "underworld" "van helsingh"(1 more i forgot liao)...watched 3 in the night...den later cannot tahan already...went to slp...den morning woke up like 7am cos she need to go back sch awhile...dressed in her clothes (we look like 2 idiots) and had breakfast at holland V BK...was quite a morning lah...nv eat so damn full before...plus a starbucks coffee...hahaha!~watched the remaining 2 discs after reaching her home...the whole sleepover we spam meshed potatos...those instant one...not bad actually...

den yday went out with pam belle ngiam pork to celebrate belle's bday...almost empited my bank acct lor!!!got one levi's bag for $130...den a skirt for $39...feel so heart pain now...but i like them lah...worked my ass off for one whole month and spent my pay so damn fast...omg...somebody STOP me!!!

1st day of school was damn damn tired and hungry...couldn't wake up in time...missed my bus...waited with pork for belle at busstop for 10mins...went to lecture late...sneaked out of lecture at half-time...went SIM to eat...den Q-ed for almost 30mins at library to get my notes...tutorial was ok...met him after sch...came my house watch to chill out and watch vcds...brought him to a hair salon...got his hair cut...and sent him off in a cabby...wad a day huh!!!

phew!~

2004-12-03T11:59:00.001+08:00

dammit...the previous copy i typed was al gone..so i gotta start all over again...SHIT!!!

ok...start with the last day of work which was on wed...had a lil adventure in the office...a CROCKROACH were at the counter...freaked me and my partner out totally!!!we dashed out of the seats screaming...hahaha!!!and worse is that there were visitors around..was damn humiliating...den one of the security supervisors came (HERO of the day) and picked up the lil pest by the feelers...and released it free into the carpark...COOL!!!hahaha...

den met up with my jjc ex-classmate jy after his match...was damn late...abt 8:30???had a meal at tiong bahru kfc den went down to town...browsed through borders...and walked around town...the whole trip was lame lah...juz imagine walking around aimlessly...and to make it worse...jy is a lamer...hahahaha!!!

yday...went out with belle...met her after he work at wheelock...treated ourselves to olio dome...the set lunch totalled up to almost $80...HAHAHA!!!!and we were so idiotic...we took like a whole lifetime juz to order our stuffs...we were like toking and toking...den the waitress had to come 3 times before we were ready with our orders...hahah...but it was a realli nice place to eat lah...onli you gotta wait 10mins to get the waiters' attention and another 10mins before you get your food...hahaha...den went shopping ard town for xmas pressies but end up buying stuffs for ourselve onli...i got 3 bras from blush and belle got a tee and a wallet from levi's...and guess was???she got the same one with her boyfriend...sweet???hahaha...met up with her dear at taka's coffeebean...she was like so damn hyper???hahaha...couldnt close her gap...hahaha...and the amazing thing is that her boyfriend knows him...indirectly...

he is at a class chalet...so couldn't spend time with me...but at least he came over my place to pass my the stuffs he got me during his hols in thailand...got me 2 necklaces...1 DIY paper lamp...1 sling pouch and 1 PINK and FURRY beanie for yw...hahaha...imagine that!!!

phew!~

2004-12-03T11:59:00.000+08:00

been hectic these few days...let's start from the last day of work...

last day of work...we had a lil adventure...there was A CROCKROACH in the house!!!office i mean...we were all like "aaarrrrrgggggghhhh!!!!!"...hahaha...was damn funny...realli threw all faces away in front of the visitors...lolx...den in the end got one of the security officers to catch it...he was damn cool man...he caught it by its feelers...he was like samn smooth with it!!!den released it into the carpark...WOW!!!hero of the day...

after work met up with one of my jjc ex-classmate...jy lah...had a meal at tiong bahru kfc den went down to town...was damn late already lah...met him like 8:30pm liao...den by the time we reached town was damn late already...nth to do lah...so browsed through borders and den had a lil walk around town...aimlessly...it was damn lame...jy made it whole trip even lamer with him "sense of hunour"...whahahah...reached home damn late...was like 10:30-11 like tt...not very sure...was damn shag...

den yesterday...met up with belle (cos pam halal pork and ngiam couldn't make it)...so since onli got 2 of us sluts...treat ourselves to olio dome at wheelock...the set lunch totalled up to near $80...wow...but the meal was nice...we took so damn bloody long to order our stuffs cos we were like toking and toking non-stop...hahah...the waitress came to us 2 times and we were like "can you come back later??"...whahaha...jokers!!!den went around town again...wanted to go shopping for xmas pressies for frens...but ended up buy stuffs for ourselves onli...budden i onli got 3 bras from blush...belle got a tee and a wallet from levi's...met up with her boyfriend at takashimya coffeebean...belle was like so damn hyper...hahah...but was glad for her lah...congrats belle!!!

muz be wondering where is he all these while right???well...he at a class chalet...so couldn't spend time with me...but he came over my home yday morning to pass me the stuffs he bought from thailand...got 2 necklace...1 DIY paper lamp...1 lil sling pouch...and 1 beanie for yw...hahaha...the paper lamp made my hand all bruised and swollen...cos i had to screw the screws into the wooded frame manually with a driver...so it was tough work...but it turned out well...at least usable...

hell is near...

2004-11-29T18:31:00.000+08:00

it's been hell for me man...earth seems so far away from here...been quarreling and tearing these days...tot that after the bangkok trip we'd be much better...or even at least improve a lil...nv would i tot that we'd be in such a bad shape...

he's all worried abt his company and all...and i'm here feeling all alone...i dunno how to get the load of him...hence became damn pms nowadays...he said that he's under loads of pressure and stress and all...and i'm here...unable to understand it all...am i juz a failure or wad...is my incompetence causing everyone to be unhappy...even belle is sucked into my hurricane of sadness...we've been flaring up at each other so often i can hardly rem the times when we were actually happy together...onli by looking at the past photos can i rake up the happier times...everything sux so damn much...i hate this hols...hate it totally...wish i didnt screw everything up...i'm so tired of crying...thinking that crying will solve everything...thinking that crying will make me feel better...i was wrong...so so wrong...i onli feel worse...i feel like dying...

*thx belle...thx for helping...i'm trying to continue from where u left me...i'll press on...till i can kiss the happy grounds again...

my first attempt at poetry...

2004-11-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

As emptiness falls into place,
My tears too run down my face
Ever since time was stolen away,
I miss him more and more each day
"I promise to change!" I said,
But today i hesitate
Shouldn't you be the one changing?
Before my heart loses the longing...

kinda sad poem hor!!!haha...but liked it...anyway was dying of boredom at work...comments ppl!!!so that i noe how great my poems are...haha!!!so bhb!!!no offence to him lah...but needed a topic to touch on...

HE'S BACK HE'S BACK!!!

2004-11-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

he's FINALLY back...hahaha...after a long weekend of waiting...realli glad...at least he came back in one piece...that means no bomb no nth...tt'S GOOD!!!but he's sick...got a HUGE ulcer in his throat *ouch*...poor thing..."spoke" on the fone today...well...in a way we are...i was toking on the fone...he was typing away on msn...weird huh???but was fun...at least he's back...

poor yw...she was kinda weak today when i went to see her with h and gra...damn poor thing oso...hh said the bandage was damn damn long...so the cut muz be damn damn long as well...she was like slping half the time we were there...poor ger...somemore she cannot move much...omg...machiam bedridden...but luckily onli for a couple of days...get well soon gurl...yw hardly ate anything today...onli half a tiny piece of fish, half a bun and half a cup of milo...she even threw them all out after a while...damn sad...dun feel gd myself...tried to crack her up but she said laughing hurts...haiz...i dunno wad to do oso...the least i can do was to bring her laughters *tt's wad i do best*...anyway...realli hope to see her up and abt soon...

*i'm realli glad you're back...and i'm sorry for the past...

buskers' festival

2004-11-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

realli damn fun today...cos yw has an op tml...so today accompany her round town...a day out before her op...damn poor thing...such tender age muz undergo op liao...sad...YAN WEN JIA YOU!!!dun be afraid my fren...i'll be there for you!!!

anyway...hh last min cannot join us cos she gotta look after her doggie...so we had to leave without her...spent majority of our time in cineleisure k-box...sang lotsa songs!!!first time we tackled FIR's songs...actually quite nice...i think i'm gonna love that band...hahah!~fav song of today was "wo yao fei" ...kept singing that...even made a few vids of ourselves...too bad i got nowhere to post them online...those are classics man!!!whoever wanna watch juz ask for it in msn ok???

after k-box went to pasta mania for dinner...had spinach tortellini for myself and carbonara for yw...great dinner there!!!den headed down tangs for festive photos...damn nice the decors on the streets...also happened to be the last day of the buskers' festival...so managed to catch the "tail" of the festival...caught a juggling act...the juggler was damn damn damn damn good...he's great at entertaining...great jokes...caught a BEAUTIFUL piece of art...it was drawn on the floor using onli CHALKS!!!believe it or not man...the guy's damn good at it...check out the pics...it'll awe you man...TOTALLY!!!saw some face art as well...that was great as well...the lady's got true talent...

took a few great pics down town...but still smth's amiss...HH AND GRA OF COS!!!

*still waiting for your return...miss you so much...

he left...

2004-11-20T02:29:00.000+08:00
he left today...for bangkok...abt 11 i think...managed to get him call me when he woke up and sms-ed him juz before he boards the plane...suddenly like damn scared...cos of all the chaos in thailand now...one bomb will mean the end man...omg...pls let him be ok???

went out with him last night...met him at abt 8+...took a cabbie down to town juz to withdraw $$$ which is damn bloody lame lah!!!den in the end still took another cab down to harbourfront to talk...we are crazy lah...but the outing wasn't all sweet and nice...i kinda broke down in the cab...cried on him...cos he say i didnt act like i wanted to be out with him at all...den he was angry with me...den i totally lost it...but after a while we're both cool...

i admit lah...realli was quite sian at first...but i was realli happie inside...juz duno y i dun wanna expess it out...maybe cos i wanna make him feel bad abt neglecting me???*bleh...i'm such a bloody lamer*...i was crazy lah...sorry...

come to think abt it...if he nv returns *CHOI CHOI CHOI!!!TOUCHWOOD*...i'm realli gonna regret for not making an effort in ending the date with a smile...kinda hate myself???i dunno lah...screw it lah...

yeah!!!FINALLY changed my template!!!

2004-11-17T23:56:00.000+08:00
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY changed my bloody template...this new template is abit the crude lah...but believe me i'm not trying to be a bitch...juz liked it...anyway...did the changes all by myself *smug*...damn shiok the feeling...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLE!!!hope u enjoyed ur day with dennis...tell me all abt it ok?!?whahah...so happie for u gurl...oh yah!!!shit...ur pressent!!!omg...dunno wad to get...will discuss with pam they all...meanwhile...keep trying on ur love ok???dun gif uP!!!

damn excited!!!finally gonna meet him tml...juz before he leaves for his hols...gonna miss him i guess...i mean i havent been seeing him v often nowadays...and juz when things are finally changing (maybe) he gotta leave for the weekend...it's a kinda hard even though i'm already "trained" not to see him for a period...but there's like no way to contact him every night???omg...i'm so gonna cry...it's so tough...

gurls' nite out..

2004-11-13T18:49:00.000+08:00
had a great time these 2 days with my gfs...yw came over in the evening after i knock off...spent time at my home using com...mp3...and tv till abt 10+ into the night...did all these time-wasting activities cos we had to wait for gra and hh to finish their lovey dovey time with their bfs...dinner and some time for hugs and all those stuffs...BEFORE they meet us at ps at abt 11+???didnt realli kept track of time yday...watch SAW...the movie is damn damn damn gross and it realli freaked me out man...the way how human minds can actually think of such gruesome ways to kill ppl...yucks!~

after movie...poor hungry gra had a lil gastric prob...so cut short the time out in town and headed for my home for a night...that was abt 3???i dun realli noe...didnt spend much time with them cos i realli wasnt in the mood...they were having fun in my bro's room with me spending solitary time in my room...wasnt their fault actually...i was juz feeling moody...pms maybe???

things are not realli on track nowadays...though spent quite a number of time outside with frens...those memories are only PART of something i realli wanted...i dunno wad i'm hoping for too...maybe time will reveal it all???dun mind me ppl...i dun even noe wad the hell i'm toking already...

anyway...woke up in the afternoon...hh left early for her banquet training at fullerton...gra's dad came back home so she gotta leave...me and yw went ard the whole of town to watch Incredibles but all sold out...so ended up watching Bride&Prejudice...i hafta admit that the aishwarya gurl is realli very pretty...but the lil tummy was abit of a sore...not that i haf a perfect body but...well...at least she looks more proportionate than i do???haha...bye peepx!~

*enjoi your time overseas...though dun get to celebrate out anniversary together...dun worry abt it...

spent almost the whole day outside...

2004-11-09T01:15:00.000+08:00
worked half day today...juz covered all the lunches...was so damn excited abt my cornrows after i heard that belle and pork went to make their hair today...was so envious lor!!!wished i could do it today...or tml...asap...

spend the rest of the after noon with belle and pork in town...pork looks damn nice ok!?she's like a rocker chic now!!!den belle looks so much "guai-er" now with her straight hair...looks quite innocent lah...but still as blur...anyway...they both turned out damn great...much better than before...i wish i could make a change today too...hahah!~BUT...the braids are so damn expensive...over my budget liao...budden i tink i'll still go for it asap...cant stop thinking abt it...hahah!~spent the remaining time while waiting for hh at the Mac cafe outside lido...damn screw up...spilled my ice coffee on myself...stained every damn thing...SO IRRITATING!!!

spent the night with my fmss sec 2 class...although onli less than a fraction of us turned up (onli 10 of us)...we had fun lah...though the guys and the gurls (onli me-hh-yw-gra) kinda splitted up after dinner...the gurls are realli crazy today...we TOTALLY humiliated ourselves in public...we took all kinds of REALLI funny photos with the movie posters in lido...hahaha...juz check out the e-photos...after gra uploads the pics and sends out to me...so you juz gotta gimmi a couple of days lah...the security guards and other patrons were like staring and stuffs...we're crazy lah...den went over to cine's TCC...had some drinks and played some realli goofy stunts...i managed to "thicken" my lips using my tongue...it's a secret technique man...hahaha!~I LOOK REALLI ATROCIOUS!~den played a little game that totally rocked the whole cafe...we were so damn LOUD!!!me+gra VS hh+yw...each pair tried to act out a segment of wadever movie...try to make it damn hard to guess lah...but somehow hh+yw managed to crack every single one we did...den we oso did the "xi nu ai le" thinggy (happy angry upset super-happy)...was realli fun lah...damn damn damn crazy today...hahaha

happy birthday to me PART III

2004-11-07T02:22:00.000+08:00
today was the MOST MOST MOST touching celebration...celebrated with lotsa peepx from ctss...got him...darius...sebas...junjie...junwei...gad...zhenning...sikai...tham... chengpeng...william and gf huiwen...was damn fun lah!!!had dips in the water...gab and william are "taxis" cos they piggyback onli one person each(nonetheless is me and huiwen lah)...den gad is the "bus" cos everyone else chiong him and hung onto him...was damn funnie!!!cannot even see his face...onli here him scream "HELP!GET OFF!"...hahah!~tt's wad the guys always do to gaddy aka gad dog...BULLY!!!mean is damn mean lah...budden damn fun oso!~somemore gad has no temper at all...tt's y despite him being the tallest...he always ganna tao pok by the rest..

today i had ANOTHER cake again...this time is blueberry cake...the guys purposely bought the kinda candles that you can never blow out unless you realli blow till you blackout...which i did today...sadistic peepx...lolx...but thx anyway!~

this time sikai and tham became the chefs for the bbq...last time used to be sebas and chengpeng...the 2 damn pro swimmers...the food today was not too bad lah...onli the stingrays are abit too dry liao cos cook too long on the fire...next time should let sebas and cp cook...juicier...hahah!~

today got no presents at all lah can say...budden damn touched...cos while i was eating the food tt time...suddenly everyone disappeared one by one...den me...being the ultimate glutton didnt realise that until i looked up from my plate lah...den tried to look for him...den ask tham and sikai oso say dunno...den after a while chengpeng or dunno hu came back say he got trouble...i of cos damn gan chiong lah cos he was sick today...somemore went down water to play...so tot wad the hell happened...so went to look for him outside the toilet...den later he came...blindfold me say wanna bring me go somewhere...den brought me to the coastline there...guess wad?!?there was a DAMN BIG AND BEAUTIFUL "HAPPY B'DAY X'TIE" made out by light sticks...damn touched lor...the whole gang of them went to make that for me...damn damn damn happy...cried abit...cos like no one ever did something like that for me before la!!!realli damn nice...dun believe go check out my e-photos...

den when i went home...i "re-made" the words using the lightsticks i took and pasted on the wall...i'm never gonna take that down...realli damn nice...but "nice things never lasts" (quoted from zhenning)...damn sad...realli wanna make it last forever...he's damn damn sweet today...

*thx so much for all that you've done for me...though u realli didnt wanna go down water...u still did in the end juz to keep me company...thank you so so so much...i'm realli very happy today...

happy birthday to me PART II

2004-11-04T22:07:00.000+08:00
whahahaha...today's considered the 2nd celebration for me...had a damn great time today oso...budden damn spoiler lah...tml gotta work...here's wad happened today:

met pam...pork...eunice...belle...eileen at abt 2:45 to 3...had a great feast at sakae at wheelock...think we totally raped the shop lah...had like over 50+ plates of food and alot of scallop...whahaha...belle still can say "order 10 oso i can finish lor...damn nice"...den she didnt even noe she was eating scallop...say wad "i dun like scallop one lor"...budden still keep eating...had a shopping spree today man...poor eileen cannot join us...got training...budden i think she enjois the training cos got ROBIN HOOD!!!lolx...spent like 70+ on clothes today...almost bought another tube dress that's like $40...DAMN WORTH IT!!!maybe going to buy tml...i'm realli emptying my bank acct man...me and belle realli spent hours inside the dressing room...the ppl outside damn buay song us liao...inside the dressing room i feel so damn "small" lor...cos belle's one so DAMN BIG!!!hey gurl...dun get offended ok???nothing wrong in being big...weird thing is she wish for it to be smaller and flatter...whahaha!~one of a kind man...she's so damn gan chiong over her bday next next week...cos gonna spend it with her fav guy...relax gurl!!!chilled out a lil at coffee club...den all headed home to watch show liao...DAMN DAMN FUN!!!so diff from yday...yday was recalling memories from the past...today is shopping mania!!!

got pressies today oso...pam+eileen+eunice+pork+alicia+mirzzy+belle=TEVA SLIPPERS THAT I ALWAYS WANTED!!!hahaha...they so xi xing...i onli say once that i like tat slippers than they can rem liao...haha!~I LOVE YOU ALL!!!den got 2 bday cards from belle and alicia+eileen...damn touched...den eunice got me a paper cake...damn cute!!!whahaha...if can i try to take a pic and post it on my photo album...got 2 more tops from top from topshop again today...haha...im crazee lah...spend way too much $$$ liao...hehe!~

going to change my looks after new year...will blow all you guys away man...juz you wait!~

happy birthday to me...

2004-11-04T01:01:00.000+08:00
dammit...the entry i typed for so damn long ganna erased away...PISSED!!!bloody lappy...anyway...shall not let this small misfortune of mine to spoil the whole spirit...erm...here's wad happened today:

spent my morning at work..had a simple lunch with my mom at 12...den left for harbourfront to buy a simwear...pampered myself with this lime green brazilian swimwear...cost me like $88.30...HAHAHA!!i'm crazy...anyway...spent like 2 hrs in the shop choosing here and there...tried on almost everything...almost drove the lady crazy...bought the swimwear partially cos he say wanna celebrate at sentosa...so wanna get myself a new set lor...den later took a cab down cos supposedly meeting him at 2:30 at harbourfront mrt...chiong home liao den he tell me change of plans...now meet 2:30 at heerens...i was like -_-...damn sianx 1/2...cos if i knew earlier i can take straight bus there...no need waste $$$ take cab home...anyway...gotta rush to heerens again from my home...took another cab ride in the rain...reached there almost 3...den waited for like 20 mins for him to appear...but guess did???GRA...HH...TY turned up!!!hahaha...cos he actually arranged for us to celebrate together and have a gurls' night out...he knew that my bday will not be complete without them...my vball gfs...had a feast at marche...yw turned up juz when we were abt to start ordering...took lotsa wacky pics and did crazy stuffs there...we played "zhong ji mi ma"(if u guesssed the number u do a penalty)...den suppose to add salt and pepper into our cokes...took a video of the faces when drinking the horrible liquid...yuck!~den later...he came to deliver my bday cake...coffee one...but he was sick...so didnt stay for long...den after he left...jon(gra's bf) joined us...had a tough time persuading ty to go moies with us...she's kinda like sanwicked in btwn her mom and us...but in the end she still went...watched Shark Tale...damn damn damn nice...damn cute...damn funny...was a great day lah!!!poor yw walked with me from cine to lucky plaza there...tried to flag a cab along the way...with her sprained ankle...it was realli tough on her...budden we couldnt even get a single cabby to even LOOK at us...so ended up taking 143...met gra and jon at the next stop...went home still gotta eat mee sua...today realli put on weight liao...tml still got sakae...OMG!!!I REALLI NEED SLIMMING PILLS!!!

recevied realli a whole lot of pressies today...gra ty hh yw shared to gimmi 2 tops from topshop and a NY cap...gab shared cost with him mom to buy me an 18k white gold anklet and a big doggie pillow...flat flat one...cute!!!mom dad and aunt gave me ang bao each...budden havent open yet..dun intend to open till i realli broke...my girl-next-door gave me another plush toy...hello kitty...this one even cuter...square square one...hahaha...nv see before siah!!!received lotsa smses from alot of peepx...thx man!!!thank you guys so damn much!!!-huggies-

tml still gotta meet pam and gang for sakae trip...whahaha...realli gonna put on weight liao lah...

*thx so much for organising today's meet-up...thx...and get well soon ok???i hate SICK guys...

today was nowhere better...

2004-11-02T20:21:00.000+08:00
today was alright...at least i didnt get any calls for me throughout the day...but still sianx half when i had to relief her for her lunch hour...bloody bitch...cos i was at another site before i went over to take over her...my colleague there let me off to take over the bitch's shift earlier by 10 mins so that i dun haf to rush over...den i reached there on time lah...den the bitch was like doing some admin work on her com...den i asked "you dun wanna go lunch ah?"..."no lah,i wanna finish my work first"...ACT LIKE!!!kaoz...den later she went to slp...nv tell me where to find her somemore...den i dun care lah...i did my work...this time i cleverer liao...got deliveries and all i juz put it on her table with a note...nv bother to slot them into pigeon holes or call the receiver...in case i do smth wrong AGAIN!!!den later i need to leave at 11:50 so that i can go to another site on time to take over another lunch hour...den i tink she went ard telling her frens abt me negatively...den i need to wake her bloody damn head up to resume duty...i dunno where the hell she is mah...so i saw her fren...asked her whether she noe where the bitch is not...i damn polite when i ask lor...smile somemore...den her fren gimmi BLACK FACE...tmd...nv die before...den when i found the slut...told her i need to leave to another site...she ask me "what time now?"..."11:50"...den she "tsk" me lor!!!say wad "next time 12 den can leave ah!"...KAO PEI!!!if i leave at 12 den the other person i'm going to take over gotta cut down her lunch period lah!!!NO BRAIN!!!BEING PREGNANT IS NO BIG FUCK!!!

kaoz man...damn damn damn damn pissed siah...next time im gonna tell my boss say i dun wanna get posted there liao...see her face already SIANX DIAO!!!tmd...

screwed up!~

2004-11-01T23:37:00.000+08:00
today realli not my day siah...tmd!~early in the morning ganna a call from my supervisor say got ppl complain abt me...cos i opened their letters from the letterbox...the thing is: THERE'S NO BLOODY NAME WRITTEN ON THE FRONT!!!how the fuck they expect me to noe who's letter it was ah!me got no penetrating eyes leh...bunch of idiots...but guess wad???the irony is the permanent receptionist there was the one who complained abt me...since when i stepped on her tail siah???den she still can complain say me and peiling (my partner last fri) left the drawers and everything on when we knock off...wad shit she toking siah...it's common sense lah!!!we were like damn freaking sure that we switched off and locked up every bloody thing she had at her counter lor!!!den i borrowed one of her magazine home to read over the weekend...i left a damn big note at the counter saying that i'm the one who took the magazine...den today she called me up and ask "you took my magazine issit?that one is my personal drawer you noe???how can you just take like that?"...damn bitch...i wasnt the one hu took it from her fucking drawer lah...peiling was reading before me...and peiling DID explain to her before she called me...it's like she did it on purpose one lah!!!bloody damn bitch...everything oso she complain one...not the staff there lor...but lucky me...i got lotsa peepx supporting me...so if i ganna any shit cos of this issue...they'll stand up for me...

damn irritated today...pissed...den make me damn upset the whole morning laH!!kept thinking whether the staffs there were unhappy abt me...so it was onli the bloody damn bitch at the counter...i tink i noe the reason why she's all out to pick on me and peiling...cos last thur she was damn late for work...peiling said she arrived at 9+ when work starts at 8:30...den peiling was damn new...so she didnt noe wad to do...how to start up the computer system and all...so she called our supervisor to ask...den the supervisor knew that the bitch was late for work...so called up the dog(bitch's husband) to ask...dog said she left home at 8:30...den worse is the bitch is so damn stupid to lie that she was stuck in a jam...so conclusion is that the bitch was exposed...den she tot is peiling purposely call to complain on her...so now she's taking revenge...picking on every minor details we did...i'm not gonna touch any damn letters she has on her counter man...whether got names or not...FUCK YOU BITCH!!!

at least now i feel better...almost wanted to quit the job man...whahahaha...anyway...juz a piece of viable advice to all you peepx reading my blog: remember to check your horoscope before you leave home...it's so damn bloody impt lor!~

HALLOWEEN STEAMBOAT!!!

2004-11-01T00:23:00.000+08:00
today was cooL!!!went marina for steamboat with the 3 idiots-pam+belle+pork...dunno wad's the occasion but pork got her pay so her treat...so let's juz take it as a halloween celebration...though we didnt dress up and all...it was fun though...juz kept stuffing ourselves with all the "dirty" food covered in the black black chao ta stuff...whahahaha!~

not forgetting the Battle Between The Species-Human vs Prongs (dunno why kept pronouncing "prawns" as "prongs" today)...was damn fun lah!!!belle was realli damn comedy...kept saying "i not scared liao" den later after lifting the lid of the container she scram till damn far away...all of us were damn freaked out by the prawns man...esp one that refused to die and juz kept jumping ard on the table...none of us dared to even get close to it...so eventually "murdered" it by pouring the bubbling soup on it...think the whole place all looking at us...damn paiseh!~

damn happy that he actually came all the way from jurong to marina to hang out with me...though with all the other peepx ard...we didnt realli tok much or anything...but still glad to see him...afterall it was like damn freaking long nv see him liao...we had lotsa arguments these few days...so it kinda strengthened us when we actually got to meet up...it's gd lah...love it!~

sorry i didnt spend much time with you...esp since you came all the way down...but thx anyway!~

halloween eve!

2004-10-30T23:57:00.000+08:00
happie halloween ppl!!!enjoi the creepy hours peepx!~

this blog of mine brought me so much trouble...been using it for like less than a month and it brought misunderstandings between me and him...this blog is jinxed..maybe i'll juz stop my entries for a few days...wait till things start to get damn interesting or wadever den i'll update it...till then...i'll be missing you guys...

learning korean!!!

2004-10-28T01:07:00.000+08:00
no lah...actually is cos i stumble on the webby that teaches korean...so learn abit lor...at least now i noe how to say "yes" and "no" and "hello"-"ne"..."anio"..."yeo-o-bu-seyo"..."ann-yeong-ha-sei-o"...hahaha!~pro right!!!learn so much within like onli a few mins...muahahaha!~genius in the making man...maybe taking up korean for the WAA thingy next year...sounds damn cool!~den next time call me i will say "mushi-mushi" or "yeo-o-bu-seyo"...sounds so pro!~

at least today not so sian...ganna posted at the main block with the service centre...so got more ppl coming in and out...den dunno y got lotsa japanese ppl come to day...den got one guy can pronounce "justin" as "dust bin"...aiyo!~find whole day for the extension oso cannot find lor!!!heng the "justin" guy came down to fetch him...heng got appointment ah!~

today late lunch again...mah-chiam like fasting lor...den the counter cannot dun haf ppl so cannot even get water from pantry...den wait till 12 like tt go pantry got so many peepx...pai seh oso...so damn tmd lor!~den gotta tahan the thirst and hunger like for the whole morning...wha piang!~but at least i earned like $110 liao...so not so bad...quite worth it lah...hehex!~

cant wait for next wed and thur...SO EXCITING!!!MUAHAHAHA...no lah...excited cos got rest days...if not everyday go work like tt will peng-san one (kaoz...den suddenly outside rain)

he juz left home to go dunno hu's house to discuss abt his business again...everyday leave home so late oso dunno how...den slp like 6+ like tt...i bet his parents missed him slping at home too...kinda worried oso...hope his bio-clock will be back to normal by the time sch starts...

hh gra ty yw...i miss all you bitches lor!~feels like i'm outta the gang already cos it's like nv realli get to hang out wid u guys...missed the days when we hung out after sch and training...v v v v fun...esp when we spend like hours at the bus-stop deciding where the hell to go...den yw will get so damn pek-chek with us...den in the end we onli go dover market eat den go home...damn lame but it's happie memories man...wanna go back to those days...BADLY!!!wanna play vball with you idiots again...miss you all so damn much...realli will spend more time with u all when sch reopens...den Sats we'll go chiong vball again in fmss...i love you all...whether is fm or np bitches...whahahaha!~-smoochies-

1st day at work

2004-10-27T00:48:00.000+08:00
SIAN is the word of the day man...sat at the counter with less than like say...20 ppl coming in the whole day...phone calls are so rare!!!stared into blank space almost all the time...realli regreted rushing out of the house this morning...realli craved for some comics from home...

reported for work at 8:15 to receive instructions and my timetable...worked till 2 then had my lunch at my mum's office (she works juz a few buildings away from me)...it was realli late lunch for me man...if i were home...i would've eaten like 10 times already???dozed off at the counter today...cos stayed up too late to watch tv last night...amazing got lotsa peepx still remember me from the previous time...realli kind of them to tok to me during their lunch break...at least i won't be rotting away and waiting for spiders to spin webs all over me...but it was realli lucky i didn't get caught slping away...if not i'm gonna be so damn screwed...hehe...

MY BIRTHDAY COMING!!!*hint hint*he called juz now to ask me not to go work on my birthday...tt's gonna be $55 gone for the day...haiz...but wad to do???who call him to be such an impt figure to me???eh pam & gang...i might be taking day off the day after my birthday...meaning next thursday...cos i promised to go sakae and geylang wid u guys mah...so muz wait for me till den horx!!!better dun go without me!!!and pls prepare my pressies!!!-smoochies-...muahahahaha!~kidding lah...pressies or not...u're all still my pals...gra hh ty yw and all other fmss girlfriends of mine...muz let me noe if you all need me to get off hor!!!cos i gotta let my boss noe asap...scared if too last min she might not allow...so...YAH!!!

juz sitting ard in my room...listening mp3...waiting for my show to start...i'm a korean freak man!!!whahaha...budden hu call the korean actor so shuai!!!(the autum in my heart that main actor-jun xi) i STRONGLY recommand all series that he starred in...hehex...

damn fun at sentosa!!!

2004-10-26T01:49:00.000+08:00
today was damn freaking fun!!!realli damn shiok...tanning wid gd frens and stuffs...toking cock...bitching...bullying mirza aka mirzzy...PURR-FECT!!!the weather was great...sun wasnt too strong...started drizzling onli after we packing to leave...damn satisfied wid my tan today...not too dark till like or-lang like tt...not too red till like lobster...not too pale till like nv go beach at all...JUZ NICE!!!but dun like the tan lines...spoilers...

met 10 in the morning at harbourfront mrt den went to eat a lil at the hawker...den went to sentosa...changed and chiong for the floats *we were at palawan*...so lil ppl...onli a few sec sch kids...but belle is so damn DESPERATE!!!"can we go jio the sec sch ppl??"...lolx...juz jk...i'll try to get you a gd guy soon ok???-huggies-juz in case junwei cannot...

so much fun...dun even noe where to start lor...juz go see the pics i posted...damn damn damn nice all...but i fat liao -sad-...NEED TO JIAN FEI=DIET...

damn sian...tml start work liaox...means muz wake up damn freaking early like say...7:30???SIANX AH!!!i want someone to "yang" me...den no need work stay home be mdm...hehehex...den can go shopping everyday...relax man...guess my future husband-to-be will have a damn hard time to provide for me...hehehex...my tag board is finally up...lotsa peepx complaining say i lagging...esp pam...THX HH for the taggy ok??love ya!!!

OH SHIT!!!my korean show start liao...gtg...update tml...bubuaiz!~

*had lotsa fun wid u guys today..thx for the memories and laughsters -touched-

1 more day to sentosa outing 1m05

2004-10-24T22:26:00.000+08:00
juz came back from harbourfront starbucks...had a lil chill out time wid him...mocha frap...one of my all time fav...and some potato salad which tasted realli bad...bought a sunblock for tml's sentosa outing...damn freaking ex!!!$13.65 FOR ONE BLOODY SUNBLOCK...these shops are crazy!!!

poor guy...got "punched" in the mouth today by some assholic army guys while playing soccer...tt "punch" realli added on to the already-quite-serious ulcer he had on his lower lip before that...if i can ever lay my hands on tt army freak...provided he's seated down with his hands and feet bound...i'll beat him up like no one else ever did man...tt should wake his bloody idea up...as the saying goes: pick someone your own size...

another realli boring day...tired too...had a volleyball session with my girlfriends-ty,hh and gra...poor yw...ushered for acjc the whole afternoon...till abt 3.30...when she can finally have a fun time wid us...she sprained her ankle while walking down the stairs in acjc...HOW WONDERFUL!!!some things can realli happen when u least expect them to...can you juz imagine the face on us when she told us tt over the fone...it was realli like -_-"...i mean...juz when we can finally get together after so long to play volleyball...something like that have to happen...wadever it is...get well real soon man yw...missed ur settings...missed playing around wid u...oh yah!!!btw...you're so damn pretty now...hehe!~keep it up gurl...

some of my pri sch pals added me in friendster...omg they're like so damn pretty!!!the guys are also quite different now...for example...there'e this guy i used to think that he was rather introvert...damn shy...den now he's like a punk?!?with dread-locks and stuffs...damn funky hairdo...wish i had the courage to realli change my looks every now and then...any suggestions???I WANNA CHANGE MY HAIR!!!so bored of it already...-yawns-

juz another day

2004-10-23T15:34:00.000+08:00
hmm...had my brows trimmed and my pedicure done...but havent started shopping yet...but that gotta wait till after i get my pay...to all those hu are looking for a job during the hols...call gabriel ong...he's looking for peepx to work for him...and i am NOT joking...juz call him up ok???

my receptionist job starting so damn soon...next tues...immediately after the class outing at sentosa...but i dun realli haf a choice...I'M HARD UP MAN!!!need cash for clothes...need cash for shoes...im planning to get a pair of new sneakers...and lotsa sandals and slippers...need cash for grooming...manicure...facial...pedicure...blah blah blah...need cash to TREAT my dear mama for facial cos she's HARD UP too...need cash to return mummy for the hp...need cash to go have fun...need cash for every outing i go with my frens and my love...need cash for every damn thing i do every damn day...life is so damn expensive to keep up with...and the damn fashion...changing so damn fast...tough job to keep up with as well...will be so damn grateful to whoever is willing to drop me a cheaque or two...juz let me noe in advance ok???

my diaryland bloggy is gone...it's blogger now...diaryland is so damn lousy...or am i the stupid one???been wanting to change the bloody template for damn long...but no one seem to noe how to go abt doing it cos all are using blogger...wadever it is...it's history...huihua: make sure zy does it ok???hehex...thx!!!

juz another ordinary day...need to spice up a lil this hols...wanna go out to chill a little before the damn sch starts again...im poly-sick...SICK of it...can someone pls bring me out to have some fun???i dun wanna stay home all day and all night...wanna go out and have fun once in a while...grace...huihua...all nv call me out one...-sulk-...yw so damn busy with her jc...haiz...sad!!!where's all my gfs when i need them?!?*hint hint*

call me up when anyone wanna go out ok???

2 days after 8th month

2004-10-21T15:59:00.000+08:00
chionging for CBO paper now...everything's gonna be over in a few more hours...im dead tired but gotta push on...taking a short break to update this blog of mine...been trying for days to change this boring template but dunno how to modify the bloody html thinggy...can somebody juz help me with it???if not i tink i'm gonna change to blogger...at least more peepx are using it...so easier to find someone who noes...whoever noes pls let me noe ok???im dead desperate...lolx...

8th month juz passed...we've been together for so long already...been thru so much shit together...but i guess the biggest pile of shit is onli juz starting...gotta try to hang on...ignore the smell and the buzzing flies...been thinking of alot of stuffs these days...realli feel like giving up cos the emptiness is too damn much...but the bond we share is too impt to me to give up so easily without a fight...im not a weakling...will hang on for as long as i can...no matter what it takes...dun wan it to end like wad i had in the past...im gonna treasure this time round...sick of crying...scared of crying...dun wanna cry anymore...

sometimes im thinking...y is everyone so stupid as to fall in love again after heartbreaks after heartbreaks...cos it's the onli thing tt makes us human...although all 'love' leads to tears someway or another...

anyway...a brief summary of wad happened on the 8th month...celebrated with another couple,which happens to be his gd fren and gf...didnt do much shit together...juz shared a cab down to west coast park in the night...separated the 2 couples for a while...had a little talk with him...den went home...kinda dull you would say...but i feel that it's a blessing just being able to see him...though it's kinda short...

wadever it is...i'll juz keep waiting till everything tides over...

post-OBC syndrome

2004-10-19T13:59:00.000+08:00
OBC SUX SHIT!!!screwed up a 10 marks qn...screw up everything...realli dun wanna retake module!!!i dun wanna face OBC one more time..too much for me man!!!-pray-but looks like everyone screwed up...haiz...moderation is needed ms ng!!!

jia you man peepx!!!esp my bloody bro in aussie...life is nv easy man...juz keep going...dun slack even a bit...your parents not v rich leh...dun stress too much...but sufficient stress is gd...mark my words...signed,the goddess of grade 'F'...

2 down 1 more to go...CBO shld be easy...but not slacking!!!gonna start studying one day before...lolx...

happi anniversary to me!!!8th month already...it's so damn fast man...sure things have ups and downs...but i hope we'll hold on yah???arguments and cold treatments are part and parcel of this relationship...juz let it go and move on...muacks!~